I Used to Hate You {Lapidot Fanfic} ((HUMAN AU))

Love (7)

Peridot's P.O.V

Lapis Lazuli was on top of me, smothering me. And it felt amazing.

My bruises were on the verge of disappearing, and they only hurt a little. But I couldn't even feel any pain at all, I felt insane. And it was a good insane. But it was also indescribable.

I just got beat up, and now someone who used to hate my guts is kissing me like a madwoman.

I shoved my tongue to the side of my mouth to keep from making any weird noises. I felt her stop and she looked up at me and asked me if I was doing okay. I was going to give some snarky remark, but the only thing I could muster was, 'yeah'. Then she said something unbelievable.

I love you.

So many feelings were rushing through my head right now. Confusion, happiness, pleasure, pain, and love. I felt like a circus ride broke down in my chest and the people were on my heart to escape. Everything felt hot, and I was sweating a little.

"I... Love you too, Lapis..." I breathed, trying to take everything in. But it was almost impossible. I felt her move her head up closer to my face and kiss my ear and whisper something into it.

I squirmed as she breathed into my ear, saying, "You're mine now~"

A shiver ran down my spine as she said the words in a seductive tone, my head on the verge of exploding.

I've never felt this before... I've been so used to being beaten up, but now my ex-enemy is whispering teases into my ear and kissing me to no end.

It felt odd to be loved... But it also felt amazing.

No wonder everyone likes this... I laughed to myself in my head.

Lapis sat up and looked down at me with a cute smirk on her face, she ran her hands from the top of my head down to my hips slowly, taking me in. She ran her palms over my stomach and she pulled my T-Shirt up with her thumbs and pulled it off over my head.

Even though she let go of my wrists, my arms were froze in that position, above my head, almost as if they were cuffed or tied together. I didn't even want to move my arms, I just sat there and watched Lapis.

And then it kicked in... The realization.

She just pulled off my shirt... Yeah... She just did? Am I dreaming? No, I'm not dreaming. I can feel her on me.

She tossed my shirt on the floor and she smiled and bit her lip. "You're even cuter without your shirt on~" she teased and ran her hands down my stomach.

I was pretty chubby and I always hated myself for it. I was healthy, but I just had a lot of extra weight. And Lapis... Didn't hate it?... She... Liked it. From what I could see. The look on her face tells everything there needs to know.

Taking my bra clip and unsnapping it, she pulled it off and revealed my bust. It was... Embarrassing. I never thought anyone would see past my neck.

"You're going really fast in this relationship, Lapis..." I muttered. She was, this was only maybe, the 5th or 6th time she's come over and she's already undressing me. I never wanted to admit that I kind of liked it.

"Fast and furious is my favourite movie, it's also how I like my relationships." She laughed and winked at me, seeing the smile on my face I tried to hold back. Yeah, she knew I liked it. It was almost screaming the obvious.

Lapis got up and moved down so our hips were touching each other and she smirked.

She grabbed her shirt with her teeth and pulled it up, smiling. "Enough of embarrassing you, it's time to get to know me a little better~" she pulled her shirt off and tied it around my wrists, holding them together again.

She was wearing a lacy blue bra, and it was... Hot.

"You like what you see?~ Why don't you give it a try? I'm not going to do all of the work~" she whispered, pulling me up and sliding off the tie around my wrists.

Me?... Asking me to... Do that?

I blushed heavily and bit my lip, not knowing what to do. I was such a wreck.

Lapis muttered and giggled softly, taking my hands and moving them to her back. "Go wild, it's not very hard~" she winked and climbed on my lap, rubbing her hands up and down my chest.

I fiddled with her bra and unclipped it after a while, it falling off without any work.

"Mhm, that's how you do it~" She giggled and put her arms up in the air, breathing out. "Haven't taken this thing off in a while... At least this time is for a good cause~"

She looked incredible. She was perfect, no fat or bruises, except for on her biceps... Oh no. She cut. She cuts. No no no no no.

I frowned and pulled her down, looking at her scars, which were just healing. They were long and deep... Did she do this because... She was depressed?... No. I tried to push the thought away, keeping myself from crying.

Looking up at her, tears formed in my eyes, and I held her hands in mine tightly. "Lapis..." I looked into her bright blue eyes and got lost in them, feeling the warmth of her hands.

"Why didn't you tell me you..." I put my hand on her scars lightly and blinked tears away. This isn't Lapis. Did she try to... Kill... Herself?

The taller girl looked down at her scars and froze. "I-I..." She was scared. I didn't want her to be... I wanted her to be comfortable. I wanted her to be happy. I loved her.

I tilted my head and kissed her scars lightly, hoping she might feel better about it.

I didn't care about the scars, I cared about her, and her not hurting herself. That's the last thing I'd want is for her to hurt herself. Or even... Commit suicide.

Her throat was choked up with words and I understood. She didn't have to explain. I tried to comfort her by saying, "Lapis... It's okay. You don't have to explain." I smiled at her and got on my knees, pulling her into a long kiss. She wrapped her arms around my neck and held me as tight as she could.

Tears streamed down both of our faces and dripped onto the sheets. I pulled back and panted, but Lapis just pulled my back in and deepened the kiss, opening her mouth and panting.

She pulled me into a tight hug and sighed and let out a few cries, her bare skin against mine.

"Let's go to sleep." I smiled and wiped away her tears. "Sorry I ruined the moment..."

Lapis pushed me down into the bed and smiled at me, turning off my light.

"Good night~."

"Night, Lapis. I love you."

I felt her hug me, and she dozed off.