From the Beginning Again

The Beginning-ish

You never truly know how much something truly means to you until it's gone. Of course, I had to learn the hard way, but in all honesty I should have seen it coming. Passenger sang a four minute song on the topic that I just described in 14 measly words. Fourteen words. One sentence. It's sad how much a few letters strung into words smashed into sentences can truly describe something as expansive as a human life. But I'm getting ahead of myself. To start off, some introductions are in order.

Hi. I'm Jackson. I'm 23 years old, a Leo and I'm a fan of self-deprecating humor, over thinking things and dramatically changing quotes to make them fit into my so-called "real-life." I know I'm not the best at introductions, but bear with me because you haven't even met the most important character yet. Enter: Elaina, a.k.a the girl who slowly ruined my life. By slowly, I mean quickly, and by life, I mean what scraps and ends of whatever was left of said "life."

First, I have to warn you: I suck at writing. I really do, but I'm doing my best to try to get it all out before it's too late. I know most of your typical stories aren't suppose to be written directly addressing the audience, but we'll just keep it in between you and me, okay? Okay, I can do this, I can get through this. Where was I again? Right, Elaina. Well let me tell you something about that...

I first met Elaina in 11th grade, I know, not as long as other dramatic love stories, but 10 years and 4 years still feel like the same amount of forever with some people. I wish I could describe the way she looked, but I'm shit at descriptions so just do us both a favor and imagine her as the most beautiful woman in the world. As for me? Just please try to imagine me as someone who is not completely hideous. Just imagine two beautiful people in a not so beautiful world in semi-beautiful circumstances. Wow. That was strangely poetic, maybe I don't completely suck at this writing thing. Kidding. I really do.

You know what? Since I suck so bad at this, let's just start fresh. At the beginning. Okay, yeah, let's do that. Here we go. From the beginning again.