FALLING APART - CALUM HOOD (COMPLETED)

Chapter 48

a/n you might need to read over last few chapters since its been a long time. thanks for being so patient with me.

chapter 48

A few weeks later.

I wake up from the sound of something smashing against the marble tiles of my kitchen. I shoot up from the bed and look around , reading the clock that read 9:30 am. I half groan and look to my left noticing Calum wasn't there I relaxed slightly figuring the noise was coming from my clumsy other half. Pushing back the duvet I slip out of bed and make my way down the hallway , towards the sound of a thick Australian accent cursing to himself.

I reach the kitchen and lean my body against the doorway as my eyes take in the surrounding area. a few plates smashed on the floor , smoke surrounding the oven and a pissed off Calum throwing what looks like burnt sausages into the bin. I cough to catch his attention the tanned male turns to me and half frowns as I make my way over to him. I push a few strands of hair from his face and kiss his lips softly

"what are you doing?" I chuckled resting my hands around his neck as his hands make their way around my waist.

"I wanted to surprise you with breakfast but it kinda went wrong."he frowned.

"at least you tried baby, clean it up and then we'll get some breakfast at aunt T's cafe before we pick up the kids." I suggested pulling away and making my way back to the bedroom.

I take a quick shower followed by a heavy make out session with Calum before getting changed and making our way out the door to pick up the kids from my parents house. Our lives seem so normal now like everything in the past hadn't happened and we're living the modern average everyday life. However this was all about to come to the end once the new album was released and the boys were sent on tour, I still don't know whats happening. Am I going on tour with them with the kids? Will I stay behind? I have to right? I couldn't possibly travel around the world with two kids, I can barely look after them now in their own home with the help of close friends and family being here every step of the way. Maybe the only reason im considering it is because I may or may not still have the slight hint of paranoia that Cal will find someone else all over again.

''Rebecca!'' Calum half yells, snapping me out of my deep thought. I look over to him with a confused expression before looking in the direction of the window, I had drove about ten houses away from my mothers during my daydream...I gotta stop doing that I could have a serious accident.

That was all it took for the car to swerve a little, Calum grabbed the wheel to try normalise my driving again before the car came to a emergency stop. My breathing had uneven pretty quick as my mind replayed the events of the car crash I had with Sasha. I had been going to therapy for awhile now but It didn't help my heart wrenching anxiety from giving me a panic attack whenever I thought about it... deep breathes Calum would say; I was taking deep breathes but that was just making me hyperventilate. The next thing I know is I wake up on what appears to be my old bed... for a moment I thought this whole thing was a dream when I saw Calum laying on the floor however as I sat up I could see the two gorgeous lives we made sitting with him as he read aloud a book called ' A Tigers Tea'.

My mother insisted on cooking us all dinner and tried to tell us to have another night off without the kids but this time i wasn't going to budge, I am a mother and I need to stop relying on everyone to look after them.

''Mum I am fine now, It was just a little blip it happens.''

''Shes been having alot of blips lately'' Calum said to my mother causing me to give him a sudden death glare.

''It does not ; just a few times''

''Shes been having nightmares as well.'' He says as he finishes his plate of pasta and walks out to the kitchen to clean his plate leaving me with my mother who has a worried expression on her face.

''Calum , will you stop already you're stressing my mother out.'' I exclaimed.

''I'm only worried because I love you, Shall I make you another appointment with Dr.Alan'' she says lifting her glass of wine to her lips.

'' I said i'm fine , If you haven't noticed I am an adult for crying out loud I do not need my mother telling me what to do anymore.'' I sighed running a hand through my hair.

''Okay okay, forgive me for trying to help.'' mum said disappearing out of the room making me groan and run after her in case I had upset her.

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We get into the car and Calum forces me to let him drive in case I have another breakdown and crash the car into oblivion... oh fuck.

Uneven breathing, gasping for air as all I can hear is my two babies crying in the back. Once more Calum pulls over the car onto the sidewalk , walks around and tries to get me to breathe properly. I feel so bad for Cal, i'm becoming like a fucking child that he has to care for. I really need to get this sorted maybe take my mums advice and go to the doctors. Once I have calmed down , Calum gets back into the drivers seat and drives us home.

''Cal.'' I call from the living room, I'm currently snuggled in two blankets while Calum put the kids to bed.

''One minute.'' he calls before appearing into the living room with two cups of coffee, I take one and thank him. He moves my legs slightly to sit down next to me before moving my legs back on top of them, his hand soon finds the skin of my legs as he caressing it in a soothing manner.

''Yeah?'' he asks placing his cup down and I mirror his actions placing mine on the table behind me.

''I've made an appointment to see the doctor, we can't live like this and I don't want to push you away again. I lost you once and I dont wanna lose you again.'' I mumbled, Calum moved slightly to lean over cupping my cheeks in his large warm hands.

''Hey shh, I think thats great but don't start overthinking I'm not going to leave you okay Becky. You and the kids are my number one priority and I wouldn't change that for the world'' he says kissing my lips for a split second before pulling me back into his arms.

''- I still think going on tour with us will be good for you.''

''But the kids Cal...''

''They can come too, If its too much they can always stay with our parents for a few parts and join us on other ones.. or you could stay with the kids here sometimes but also tour with us a few times if that makes sense''

''I'll think about it baby, I love you.''

''I love you more.''

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A/N

Short but this is the best I can do , since i've been away so long I have serious writers block and have no idea what I want to do with this story so it might end within a few chapters with a detailed epilogue. Comment what you want in the next upcoming chapters give me ideas pLEASE!!

also this story has just hit one million reads I AM SO thankful and shocked; this is my second story to reach this number and the feeling is still unbelievable thank you thank you thank you. It's ever crazier that the prequel 'falling for you' is almost at two million WTF.

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