About My Life...

So I was tagged by Ploffot to do this... Its basically a #DrawMyLife but you write about your life from when you were younger to now....I hope that I did everything that you asked for! And sorry there is just somethings I don't want to put in there...

My name is Selena Alexis Marino (yes my initials are SAM)

I was born March 18th, 2000 making me 16 years old; I was supposed to be born on March 24th. When my mom was pregnant with me the doctors didn't know what gender I would've been. They kept telling my parents every other time that I was a boy or I was a girl. On March 18th, 2000 my cousin and my cousins friend got into a very bad car accident; leaving my cousin in critical condition and my cousins friend dead. She flew threw the window and got her head chopped off in the process; they never found her head (that's what I was told, I promise). It caused my mom so much stress that she started to bleed while she was pregnant with me. She went into the hospital and they performed an emergency c-section on her, we both would've died if they didn't. I was supposed to have ADD, ADHD, etc; they said I wouldn't be able to have a normal life...When I was small I would do these crazy things and my parents got me help and I stopped.

Age 9...
On May 5th, 2009; I was riding my bicycle really fast. I wasn't looking where I was going and at the same time me and my sister crashed into each other. She feel into the grass and I feel on to the sidewalk; I started screaming for help and Angelo rushed up to me and got the bike off of me and carried me into the house. I still remember telling him how I couldn't feel my arm. We went into the house and I started balling my eyes out, my dad and Anthony both rushed up to me and seen I was bloody. My mom came up from the basement from doing laundry and seen what I looked like and started rushing to take me to the hospital.

My mom was the one driving, my dad in the passenger seat, and me in the back. Mom was going through stop signs and lights rushing to get me to the hospital. My dad kept tell her to pull over and let him drive but she wouldn't stop; so I told her I wanted her in the backseat with me and she listened. As we were almost there, I felt something dripping out of my ear; I grabbed a napkin and put it in my ear and noticed there was blood coming out of my ear. I told my mom and she started flipping out more, but I didn't understand why she was at the time.

So we reached the hospital, they rushed me into the back as soon as the seen me. They cleaned up all the blood, did and X-ray on my arm and head; they gave me stitches on my chin. Once the X-rays came back the doctor came in and said "I have bad news" and looked between and my parents. My mom started to get worried and stared at me; the doctor said to me "you fractured your skull and your brain is swollen" mom started to cry and freak out but I didn't know what was going on.

They explained it to me better and than I understood why my mom started freaking out. My dad just couldn't believe what was going on; he was in denial. The doctor told me that I had to be rushed up to Children's Hospital in Buffalo, so they had an ambulance take me. As we were going I felt these hard things in my mouth and started handing her pieces of my teeth. My mom went into the ambulance with me as my dad followed us there. They bandaged me all up and had me stay there for three days; my dad never leaving my side for more than a minute. He didn't even shower because he wanted to stay with me and make sure he little girl was alright. So all together I had a fractured skull, 4 chipped teeth, broke both bones in my wrist on my left arm, and got stitches on my chin.

A couple months later my mom started to get into drugs and alcohol badly. She never truly took care of my sister (Melissa), my two brothers (Anthony and Angelo). She would rather have drugs than take care of us; until my dad threw her out. I would always do stupid things and kept going back and forth to my mom and dad because I still thought my mom would change. During that time I started feeling depressed and ever since than I've always felt like it.

Age 10-11...
My dad came home crying from work with Angelo. I asked Angelo what was wrong and he told me that my aunt (ReGina or Gina) had stage 4 brain cancer. I started crying as soon as he said them words. During the span of 2-3 years we kept going back from my home city to Pennsylvania because the doctors kept saying Gina wasn't going to make it. They kept feeding her pills after pills and kept doing surgery after surgery on her.

Age 13...
I left to go home with my aunt (Nicole), Melissa, and my grandma. On January 12th, 2013; two days after being home, I wake up and look at Nicole and Melissa noticing something was wrong. I asked Melissa what was wrong and she told me, "Gina passed away at around 7 AM" I started balling my eyes out. I feel into a deeper depression than what I was, me and Gina were always close and her being gone; made me so depressed. On January 16th, we buried her...

Age 14-15...
This is the year that my depression hit me hard. I started cutting, and doing a lot of bad things to myself. I would lash out on everyone and always had an attitude. This is the year that I found out that I not only was interested in boys, but girls too. This is the year I told my sister that I tried killing myself before... And she listened to me; for the first time in along time I felt weight off my shoulders but not fully. I never told any of my family that I am Bisexual because they are so judgmental about everything. And I'm not the person who like to be made fun of... Even if it's in a joking matter, I lash out on people and get mad to the point where I start crying (I cry when I'm mad).

Age 16...
So here I am now. I stopped cutting, I'm still slightly depressed but everyone here is helping me. My crew (HOS) have been helping me a lot too and I'm so grateful for them all, I love you all. I have a wonderful girlfriend (who is my first ever girlfriend, I never had one before) my family are still ass holes but I still love them no matter what. I couldn't ask for another life because I wouldn't have ever met anyone that I did on Wattpad; who've helped me in so many ways... And this is my life...

I tag:

McGoatz
EmilyDaFudgingCat
_BluePan_
thepandaispurple
HydroEnergy
KateMargery
Ploffot
Magican_Bunneh
Dially (there I tag you too)

If you don't want to do it, than you don't have too. Sorry if you already did it, I still tagged ya asses XD

Love you all! <3 😘💚

~Selena aka BitchImHoodini