The Bad Boy Is My Baby's Daddy (BoyxBoy) (MPreg)

Chapter Eight

The Bad Boy Is My Baby's Daddy

November 23rd 2012
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Chapter Eight - Terrance Archibald

''What in all mighty hell do you mean you got back together!?'' Carmen and Ryder exclaimed in unison then paused to shoot one another a dirty look before their piercing brown gazes landed back on myself. My very uncomfortable and guilty self that wished the ground would open up and swallow me whole.

You'd have thought I had just told them the world was ending.

''We maybe, sorta never really ended things...'' I trailed, wincing as Carmen and Ryder narrowed their eyes before Carmen threw her hands up in disbelief, whirling on Ryder whom looked caught off guard for gathering her attention when the spotlight was clearly on me.

''Tell him this is a bad idea!'' She hissed past clenched teeth. ''The asshole was AWOL for a few weeks with no contact what so ever!''

''He explained everything to me already! I understand why he disappeared and it had nothing to do with me, trust me.'' I jumped in defending my boyfriend while also cutting Ryder off the beginning of his opening sentence.

''T-trust you? Are you kidding me? How long have you and Cloud been together since his sudden return without letting us in on that little bit of information?'' Carmen demanded clearly hurt but also enraged as her nostrils flared, her cheeks flushed and the balling of her fists which caused her knuckles to turn white.

''Two weeks.'' I said, swallowing the lump in my throat as I wracked over my brain with something to defend all my lying and secrets. ''I wanted to tell you both! I did, I swear but...''

''What you're gonna keep more shit hidden from us? What happened to our honest friendship? Tell each other anything without receiving shit? Good, bad, sad, tragic, does that mean nothing to you anymore?'' I felt as though she had slapped me across the face.

''...I'm telling you now.'' I said, my voice shaking and I resisted the urge to cry out in frustration. I felt like I was being suffocated with overwhelming-ness if that was even a word to use to describe my situation. I couldn't stand their looks of betrayal like I had done the ultimate wrong. I felt like a small cockroach, wanting to go hide in a dark corner and sulk with my regret.

There were moments in my life I had regret, like when I was five and thought I could jump off my wooden playground, thinking the wind would help me fly only I ended up with a busted leg and a worried sick mother. Another time when I was eight, I believed my brother when he had told me about potato bugs truly being the reason behind mashed potato's and convinced me to eat one.

Now looking back on my most memorable ones this had to be one of my biggest. Carmen and Ryder were like family to me, we were always there for each other through the worst and the better. Lying was taboo in our friendship which only made my confession more like a final blow.

But, I had bigger things to worry about over our friendship. I had a baby to worry about, to care for and I didn't need the stress. It wasn't good for the baby or myself. I still had to discuss everything with Cloud because he deserved to know he was going to either become a daddy or drop our relationship while he still could.

''I can't deal with this right now.'' I whispered, gritting my teeth and adjusting the bag strap on my shoulder. ''I'm meeting Cloud for lunch and I'd appreciate it if you could move past all those stupid false rumors, all my lying and hidden secrets and join Cloud and I for lunch for a proper long over due introduction. If you can't very well do that, fine.''

There were also moments in life where I regret things I say but as I stared at both of my best friends for another second longer, I realized I didn't regret a single word I spoke and turned on my heel to stalk out to the courtyard in wait of my boyfriend. Of course, that didn't mean I didn't regret not telling them the truth sooner because I did—a lot. And that would always eat away at me.