Nostalgia

Chapter 5

Phil's POV

After I left Dan's room, I couldn't help but smile when I closed the door. Even though today showed how big of a mess Dan is, it made me want to clean it even more.

Dan definitely had a light, was it dim? Yes, very, but not gone. The more I thought about this mysterious boy I had met just a few days ago made me crave to learn more. There was something about Dan. Something about the way he looked at the world, or even the way he talked, but there was something more that intrigued me, and I couldn't put my finger on it. I ran through the different reasons of why he'd intrigue me in my head.

Was it the fact I wanted to help him? Yes and no... Was it that blade? Yes and no.... Was it because I wanted his friendship? Yes and no.... I thought about the last option very carefully.... Was it because I fancied him when we met? I thought about the answer for a few minutes. Was it yes? It wasn't no. Possibly maybe? I started thinking about the outcome if it was yes, but I immediately shook it away.

No! I told my self. Not again... To get my mind off of things I pulled out my phone and dialed a familiar number. It rung for a few seconds until a voice on the other end answered.

"Hello?"

"Hey PJ, it's Phil."

"Oh hey Phil how've yah been?" PJ sounded like he was tired.

"I've been doing pretty well, but that's besides the point. I need a flat."

"A flat? But I sold you one last month."

"I know but this is for a friend."

"Ooooooh a friend?" PJ's tone definitely sounded like he was hinting that Dan wasn't just a friend.

"Yes just a friend." I laughed.

"Hmmm, what's your price range?" PJ asked.

"Anything affordable."

It was silent for moment and I could hear some background noise,"Everything that you'd go for is gone." PJ replied.

"Is there anything at all?"

Well there is one, it's a beautiful two bedroom flat but it runs at around 1486 pounds.

"Sounds perfect,"

"U-uhhh okay?" PJ didn't sound very convinced. "So who's this friend?"

"PJ..." I warned.

"I'm not saying anything, I said f.r.i.e.n.d, friend."

I sighed, "his name is Dan Howell."

I suddenly I heard some commotion in the background but before I could say anything PJ responded with, "Well I'll meet you and Dan tomorrow at four at the flat, see yah later!"

With that PJ hung up the phone and I was left on a dead line. I rolled my eyes and shoved the phone in my coat pocket, it was cold tonight and the only thing I wanted to do was snuggle up in my bed and watch the anime I've been putting off. Luckily my apartment wasn't that far from where Dan was staying, so the walk wasn't that bad. After I unlocked the door I went straight to the dresser and changed into my comfy clothes, and turned on the anime.

I wonder if Dan would this anime? I thought to myself. I mean it has a good plot, good animation... And hot guys in speedos. I wonder what Dan is doing? I wonder if he's going to like the flat? What if Dan was blonde? So many Dan related questions filled my head, why was he always on my mind?

Ever since I met Dan Howell he's been the main topic of my thoughts, and the only way to subside them was if I was with Dan. But as strange as it might sound, I didn't mind thinking about that brown haired boy, I liked thinking about him. Suddenly I remembered a painful memory and I tried to shake the thoughts away. I knew why he was on my mind, I just wouldn't admit it.Hopefully all this can pass and we can continue being friends, I told myself.

Knowing I wasn't paying enough attention to the anime I sighed and turned off the TV, got up, got in bed, and thankfully, quickly fell asleep.

°°°dream
"Phil where are we going?" Dan asked as I covered his eyes with my hands.

"You'll see soon enough!"

We were in a field, walking somewhere, I didn't know where but I definitely felt excited.

The dream then skipped...

"Phil! How many times have I told you to not eat my cerial!" Dan exclaimed as he shook the empty box he held in his hand.

"I can't help it!" I laughed. "I'm addicted!"

"Well you need learn how to control yourse-..... Phil?"

I smirked as I turned Dan to face me, I slowly started to back him into the counter and I bluntly see a deep red blush appearing on his cheaks.

"What was that about controling my self? I asked as I cocked my head.

The dream skipped again. Except this time I couldn't see anything.

"Dan let me take your picture!" I exclaimed.

"No, I look like terrible!"

"No you don't!" I laughed as I heard the camera click. "Now get down so we can eat."

°°° end of dream

My eyes opened to see nothing but darkness, it was still night. I groaned and checked the clock...4:04. Those were some strange dreams... I thought to myself, and why did dream Phil act so strange. I was so confused at the moment, I didn't know what I wanted or what I needed nor why all these thoughts involved Dan. I then thought for a long moment...I did know why all thoughts revolved around Dan, I did know what I wanted, but I was only confused about the fact, is it what I want or what I need?

Rolling over I tried to fall asleep again but failed miserably, more and more thoughts kept flooding my mind, but one in particular caught my attention and this one in particular wouldn't leave.

....what if we lived together?