Nostalgia

Chapter 12

Phil's POV

You're going to ask him... I told my self as I paced around my room. You need to ask him...

"Phil?" I heard Dan's voice behind me. I turned to see my roommate rubbing his eyes as he stood in the doorway. "What are you doing? I can hear you pacing through the wall."

"Sorry...Just thinking." I sighed, Dan looked quite attractive at this hour, not like a 'I want to take you right now' attractive, but naturally, his brown usually flat straightened hair, curled and seemed to have a mind of its own and his eyes were sleepy and half closed.

Dan walked further into my room and sat down at the foot of my bed. "What are you thinking about?" He asked sleepily. "And what time is it?"

"It's nearly dawn, and nothing much."

"Come on, you can tell me." Dan prodded like a child.

I sighed, I wasn't getting out of this one. "Well... There's this person I've been wanting  to ask out for awhile now...but I don't know how."

Dan's face seemed to change and he looked down at his hands. "I-I guess the best thing to do is just have enough courage to ask to them...."

Dan's advice was monotoned and quiet and I wondered why the change of attitude.

"I'm tired, I'm going back to bed." Dan sighed as he turned off the light

"Y-you could stay here....with me." I suggested.

Dan turned around in the door way. "Are you sure... I wouldn't want to intrude."

"It's not intruding if you're asked." I explained.

I saw Dan hide a blush as he hesitantly stepped back towards my bed. I laid back and felt as Dan did the same. I suddenly realized what I had just asked. I turned my head and looked over at Dan's silhouette lying besides me. I was glad it was dark, because I guarantee I was as red as a strawberry. My previous thoughts rushed into my head, sighed, and took the chance.

"Dan, I'm sorry for asking at this hour.... But would you like to go on a date.... With me."

Dan didn't answer, and I started to panic.

"I-Im sorry I shouldn't have asked." I studdered. "But I just wanted to see if you like me, the same way I like you..."

I waited for a response but all I heard was a soft snore. I looked at Dan's face and noticed he was asleep. I let out a sigh of relief as the worry slipped away. I laid down properly in the bed and pulled the blanket up to both me and Dan and looked up at the ceiling. I was a mess, and the effect this boy had on me was so confusing. One moment I want to pepper light kisses on his face, cuddle, whisper sweet nothings, walk hand in hand, and just enjoy each other's love. But other moments craved his body intertwined with mine. I wanted to be be able to kiss him, hold him, love him, and just enjoy all Dan Howell had to offer.

I rolled over and closed my eyes. These are all dreams. I told myself.....Just dreams.

I woke up the next morning to an empty bed. I sighed as I remembered Dan had to work, to be honest I could support both of us, but that confession will be saved for another day. I swung my legs over the side of the bed and made my way to the kitchen. I yawned and made myself a bowl of cereal and plopped down on the couch. It was boring without Dan, I looked at the clock and groaned, 4 hours till he got home.

I decided to clean up a bit and finish the laundry, I hurried around the house and grabbed mine and Dan's clothes from the bathroom and started the washer. But as I was turning pockets inside out while looking for spare change, a few pieces of paper fell out of Dan's black jeans. I picked them up out of curiosity and looked at what they said. I felt my heart drop... a name and number was written in ink, along with: Call me anytime, note. I sighed as I placed the wet paper down and started the dryer.

I climbed back up to my room and laid down on the bed. I had no right to be jealous, I was only a friend... a mere roommate at the least. Dan is an attractive guy that plays piano in a fancy hotel, of course people are going to give him their number.

Suddenly a voice rang through the house. "Phil, Are you home?" It's was Dan. I scrambled to my phone and noticed Dan was home early.

"Yeah I'm here!" I got up and walked into the kitchen to greet Dan.

"I went to the store and bought more cereal and milk." Dan commented.

"We might need more..." I smiled.

Dan raised and eyebrow and looked at the empty carton of his cereal in the trash.

"PHHIIILLLL!" Dan groaned.

"I'm sorry!"

"Are you the reason we run out of cereal halfway through the week!"

"I have cravings!"

"Philip your not a pregnant woman!"

I laughed and told Dan I'd buy more in the morning. He seemed to believe I would. We started on dinner and worked in sync as we cut the vegetables and browned the meat for the pasta we were making. After serving each other we sat down on the couch and turned on an anime we didn't finish. As we were eating I gazed over at Dan's dimly lit face and studied the facial fetures and expressions he'd make on each scene. I wondered if I should ask him out now or wait till later. I was so confused and scared. After a few episodes I soon heard Dan's soft snores I turned back to see him sleeping with part of a bread stick still in his hand. I smiled at how peaceful he looked and took his plate to the sink. When I returned I saw the position his neck was in and I started to think ahead.

Dan will wake up with a crick in his neck if he continues to sleep like that, I thought.

I sighed and reluctantly decided to wake him, I tapped on his shoulder and thankfully he woke up within a few seconds.

"Phil?" Dan yawned.

"I'm here," I assured, "but you need to sleep in your bed or else your neck is going to hurt in the morning."

Dan nodded in understanding and stood up

I smiled and guided the sleepy Dan to his bed, he seemed very tired, and the moment I turned out the lights he seemed to fall back asleep.