Half A Heart

Chapter Nine

It's been a while since I felt this way again. It feels like you have discovered something out of this world. It depletes you in the nicest way and it preoccupies you. Ever since that happened I started to day-dream and I can't get the thought of him out of my mind and it seems like I always wait for him, I always long for his presence. 

I always think of Edward and about that kiss. I wonder how long will this relationship take us. Will it last long? Will it be forever? I asked myself lots of questions that it started draining me but in the nicest sense possible. This time I wanted to be sure because I don't want to end again with a broken heart. I need assurance, I need answers, and I want it to be perfect.

I am so carried away by that night. Somehow I feel addicted to the experience and the feeling. It feels like all-consuming euphoria and I am willing to risk everything for another hit of adrenalin from that kiss. Is this what they call infatuation because if it is, then I'm delusional.

I checked on the clock and it's already 9 o'clock in the morning. Good thing it's the weekend and we don't have classes on saturday. I started walking down the stairs and I smell food and my tummy approved. I approached the kitchen counter near Mom and sat down the chair and kept on spinning. 

"Good morning earth!" I said in a big voice.

"Good morning god." my mom replied. "Why are you so happy like really happy, happy... happy? She continued.

"Uhmm... Nothing. I just choose to be happy!" I said.

"Honey, I know you... The last time you were like this, Glenn came in the door. Will he visit later?" she said.

"Mom! No..."

"Oh, what happened to "best friends forever"?" she said.

"Well I guess forever stops when one of you stopped believing in it." I said.

"Oh... Honey, just always remember I'm always here for you and I'll always support you... forever."

"I believe in you mom..." I hugged her from the back.

"So I'm still expecting someone will come in the door in a while. Who is it?" she said.

"You'll meet him later!" I said excitedly.

"Him? So... What's his name?" she asked handing over my plate full of sausages. 

"Edward..." I said biting the sausage.

"Oh. Honey! Don't! Just don't!" she said covering her eyes.

"Why???" I asked while laughing.

I really love my mom. She's like a close friend to me but she's always there as a mother. I respect and love my mom no matter what happens. She's really supportive but I don't know how supportive she can be when she find out that Edward and I are dating. Well, so far so good.

After having my breakfast I went back to my room and started fixing my things. Last time Edward was in here it was a total chaos. I can clean the whole house and the garden but I don't know why I can't totally clean my room. My mom already gave up cleaning my room because everytime she comes back in it's as if she was never here yesterday.

While I was fixing my cabinet and folding stuff I saw one shirt Glenn gave me before because I accidentally spilled my drink on mine. The memories refreshed in my brain like it was just yesterday. Every time I remember Glenn I ask myself the same questions all over again. Will Edward and I end up like how Glenn and I ended? 

I lay down on my bed thinking and thinking. I want to be careful this time, I never want to commit the same mistakes I did before. I am not doubting Edward but I just can't help it. When you've experienced a heartbreak you'll try your best to avoid it next time. I trust Edward but still you don't know what can happen next.