Half A Heart

Chapter Three

Is that my phone ringing? I slightly opened my eyes, seriously? A phone call at 5am? I answered the phone with a very annoyed tone.

"What?!" I don't care who it is! It's 5am dammit!

"Hey Ian! It's Felipe! What time will your classes end today?"

"5pm!" I said still annoyed.

"I'll meet you at Starbucks exactly 6pm! I need your help! See ya!"

"Wait! What!-" The line was cut already.

"I'm going to make a frappe out of your brain Felipe!"

I saw Edward and Glenn standing at my doorstep. Glenn was crying while Edward was smiling. They were both reaching out their hands to me. What?! Is this the part where I need to choose between the two? How did Edward got here?! I am not surprised with Glenn because my Mom let's him in always and lets him wake me up in the morning. But Edward?

Suddenly they both went near me, Glenn pulling my right arm and Edward pulling my left. I was in pain because they're doing it as if they are in the middle of thug-of-war. Is this a battle between them? Who will win? Glenn let go off me and vanished in the dark. I feel so much pain, not at the joints of my shoulders and arms but in my heart. How can Glenn gave up? Why did he let go off me? Edward hugged me tight while I am crying. My heart is in pain and I was crying to death. 

I flipped out of bed with my t shirt all soaked up with sweat and I was gasping for air. What the hell was that? This might be because I think too much about Glenn and Edward. Or is it a message my brain or heart is trying convey?

I stared at the clock. Oh shit! I need to get ready it's past 7am already! I might be late and Edward will be pissed off for sure. I picked up my phone to check if there are messages. One message from Felipe.

I am damn serious about that 6pm call time at Starbucks!

Can I say no?! Ugh! Anyway Felipe is my best friend I shouldn't let him down with this. Because he's always there for me when I need him. So I should be there for him since he said h needs my help.

I scrolled to the next message. A message from Edward.

Rise and shine! I'll wait for you even if you won't come. :)

Okay then, I'll go back to sleep. Just kidding!, I replied.

Just when I took my towel from the hanger my phone rang.

"I will wait for you no matter what you say!" Edward said.

"Okay fine! Seeya." I said.

I hope Edward is hell serious about this things he says to me, because I'm starting to get a blush!

I dialed Amber's number.

"Hey Amber! I'll go to school early today! I need to finish Algebra homework! Edward's helping me by the way..."

"Oh is this a mini date??? I am so happy for you!" 

"Whatever Amber! See you later!"

When I arrived at the library I saw Edward straight ahead.

"IAN!" He shouted.

"Shhh!!!" The librarian glared at him.

"Did you forgot you're in a library?!" I said.

"Sorry! I got a little excited! C'mon sit here!" He took away his bag from the chair beside him.

"There?" I pointed at the chair beside him.

"Yes? Why? C'mon!" He tapped the chair.

I am sure, everyone who will pass by will look at me. Edward is one of the most cutest guys in freshmen. This is a bad idea. Plus, Sandy has a crush on him. Even if I am not a girl, I am pretty sure about the "Sister Code", "Sisters before Misters", etc. But who cares, I am not close with Sandy so I don't consider her a sister. 

I can't keep my eyes off Edward, he's so perfect in every way. He's small mouth makes me want to try them. He's small eyes makes me want to look at them all day. The way he fixes his hair so tidy and neat. This is how every man should look like, very clean.

I am pretty sure he had many girlfriends before. He looks like a chick magnet. That's why every girl that passes by is looking at us as if their eyes are being magnetized. I hate this feeling, seeing people saying something about me at the back of their minds. I am kinda paranoid about it because I'm sure they have a lot to say since I am not good looking to compliment Edward's demigod looks. I feel so small beside him.

As we try to finish our homework. I noticed Edward is kinda getting a little bit worried or bothered about something. Edward keeps on tapping his foot and he is bumping my leg. This is really awkward for me. Can't he notice he is bumping my right leg? AWKWARD...

"Edward, can you stop tapping your foot? You're kinda bumping my right leg..."  I said in an awkwardly tone.

"Oh, sorry... I'm kinda nervous." He said.

"What are you nervous about?"

"Uhmm, nothing..."

I am pretty sure it's something. Am I missing something? Is there a graded recitation? I am getting worried because God knows and Edward knows I am so not prepared for anything that has to involve with school. So I tried to ask him again.

"You can tell me anything, you know? You are my first guy friend here in College. You can always open things up to me." I said calmly.

"I don't know how to tell this, but..."

"But..." I said with curiosity.

He took my ball pen and placed it down. Then he hold my hands and put it on top of my right leg. Jeez, his hand is cold. I looked at him in shock and he is just staring at the book. What the hell is happening? Why is he holding my hand under the desk? Why is the atmosphere around us getting too awkward?

"What's this???" I asked him.

"I don't know... but I kinda like you. I know my parents will probably hate me for this. But I seriously don't know why I like you, I just do. I had girlfriends before but I suddenly got attracted to you." He said looking at me.

"Uhmm, I also don't know. I'm in total shock right now. It's just too early for you to feel like this. Edward it's only the second day of classes are you sure about how you feel?"

This can't be happening, the cutest guy in freshmen is saying me these kind of stuffs. I want to black out. I just want to faint. Is this a dream? How can someone like him do this to someone like me who is probably a no one. 

"Ryan, I am sure I like you. But I am not sure why. I don't know why. Please don't hate me for doing this. It's the first time I had a feeling like this for a guy."

"Edward, you know I am in the middle of something with Glenn. I still love him. Just think of this please... Maybe you're just confused."

I let go of his hand and focused back on the book. I can't think right now. I don't know what to tell Edward. He went back to reading his book and writing on the paper. I am so torn apart right now. I want Glenn back, but with Edward's presence, he's kinda telling me that I want him more than I want Glenn. Oh God, Edward please say something...

"Ryan, I am sorry. I know you are going through something and it's so unfair of me to do this. I am really sorry..."

"Hey, don't be sorry. It's good that you opened up to me. Just think of it for a week or more. Maybe you'll find the explanation. We can still be friends."

Thank God he understands me. I thought he will not care about my feelings and what I am going through at the moment. I smiled back to him holding his wrist. And he smiled back with assurance.