Sex Games

Sadness

"Why did you tell her?" David whipped me with the spatula.

"I didn't want her to leave" I leaned over the counter watching what he was doing.

"Well she's gone so now what do we do?"

I groaned and sat on the chair. After I told her I was pregnant she still left. She said 'good luck' and left.

"We don't do anything" I coughed. "We just move on with our lives like we always have"

"Are you ok?" David asked coming close to me. "I know you hate when she's here"

"I just hate when she comes and then leaves so soon. She always wants something from me, I never asked her for anything and she still resented me"

"I know baby" David hugged me. "Please don't think about it"

"I can't help it, my gonna brain kill me"

"Babe your gonna be fine, I'm here, you're gonna be fine" he kissed my head.

I nodded and took a deep breath. "I need to clear my head" I grabbed the car keys off the table and walked toward David. "I'll be back before dinner" I kissed him and walked to the door.

I jumped in the car and drive to Shawn's house he might be able to help me with all this.

I knock on the door and a smiling handsome face invites me in. "Hey Chris, I was just gonna call you"

"Now I'm here, are you busy?"

"Of course not" he moved aside and let me in. "How's it going?" He hugged me. I like how he seems so happy but I can't tell he's going through things, I can tell it when I look into his eyes. I'm scared for him.

"Ok..." I sighed and walked into the kitchen. "Do you have alcohol?" I sat down.

"Always" he laughed and pulled out a bottle and two glasses.

"How are the babies?"

"Their good. You know... Jayla said something yesterday" he handed me my glass and continued. "She goes "where's mommy?" And I tell her and she's asks for a picture. So when I show her she says "that's not my mommy"

I raise my eyebrows and bring the glass to my lips. "She goes "that's lady I was with a while ago, yea that's my mommy"

"Aww, she's so sweet"

"And when I explained to her that your not her mother she's all upset and she starts crying" he laughs. "And I felt so bad"

"Aww, my poor baby" I took another sip. My stomach feels weird and then I remember. "Oh my gosh" I push the drink away"

"What?" Shawn comes closer to me.

"I can't drink this"

"Why?"

"I'm pregnant"

"Really? Your not joking?" He looks shocked.

"I'm not" I tried to smile.

"That's great" he walks to the fridge and pulls out some juice.

"Yea..."

"You're not excited?"

"I'm not thrilled, I mean I'm 25, I know I'm not that young but I'm not ready for a baby"

"So what do you want to do?"

"I mean I want David to be happy, because he can't wait, but I just feel like the my whole world is gonna crumble and my life is gonna stop"

"That's what I thought when Jenny was pregnant was Jayla... I doubted myself, I didn't think I'd be a good enough father, mine wasn't in my life I don't know how to be a dad or a role model. The only thing I could probably tell someone is how to role a joint" he said sadly. "But then when I laid my eyes on her, I felt something that I've never felt before"

He looked off into outer space as he talked, loosing himself in his voice and I watched him.

"Are you ok?" I asked him. He looked at me and didn't say anything. "It must be hard for you to stay strong"

"I'm fine" he said a little too quickly.

"I know your not Shawn, and I know that's it's hard to be happy again from feeling so much pain for so long"

"I don't want to talk about this"

"But you should"

"I don't trust you"

"Ok I understand. You're my only friend and I just want you to be happy... and ok" I said slowly.

He was looking deeply into my eyes and the longer I look at him the more I'm starting to feel something. "Ok" I looked away. "I have... to get home" I stood up and walked to the front door. "Thanks for talking to me" I said to him but he still looked dazed by our small conversation.

I walk into the house and all the lights are on for some weird reason. I walk up stairs and I hear laughing. I walk upstairs quietly and peek into the bedroom.

Sandra and David. My heart sinks as I watch the two of them gawking at each other. Sandra's eyes are filled with hate and envy while David just looks stupid.

"Stop" he says to her. "You need to leave"

"David you know you want this, why haven't you been returning my calls?" She asked.

He doesn't want you.

"I deleted your number"

Sandra pressed herself against David but he kept pushing her off. "You want me more than your wife, she doesn't love you like I do"

"I love my wife, what we did was a mistake and I hurt her"

"What about me? I'm hurting too" she kissed him but he didn't stop her.

He groaned but pushed her again. "Now you need to go" he pointed to the door and he saw me standing there.

I looked at the both of them. Sandra stood up and grabbed her stuff, then ran out the house and slammed the door shut.

My vision is blurry, my heart is pounding and I can't breathe. "You must really love her" my voice cracks.