Love Peoms

V

Chapter Five- Shit

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"Hey Corban." I said while approaching him.

"Hello." he said quietly.

"Why aren't you sitting with your friends?"

"I'm not in the mood."

"Well, uh-" I was stuttering again.

"What is it?"

Ok, don't back down.

Your going to tell him in

three

two

one

"I like you."

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"Wait... what?" he asked confused.

"I like you." I reassured.

"Like, like like?" So many likes.

"Yea." I said lowering my voice nervously.

"Oh" He said in a upset voice.

Shit

Why

Is

He

Upset

"Yea." Well I'm just making this more awkward.

"I.... look.... I have a... uh.... girlfriend."

Shit

My

Life

Is

O V E R.

"I'm sorry." He looked really upset.

"Sorry for wasting your time." I walked off without turning my back.

I decided to ditch the rest of school and just go home. I walked to my house, trying to hold in my tears. When I got to my house, I went to my room and opened my journal with all my love poems I wrote. I read a few while tears leaked out of my eyes.

  As soon as I wake up, My head is filled with you
The way I feel about you--- Oh, only if you knew!
I smile and giggle whenever your around
And just a glimpse of you stops me from feeling down.  

More tears came out.

  I barely know you,
Yet my words just spill out with no filter.
I want you to just see me,
Without a mask and a little off kilter.  

I'm starting to go insane.

  We call you crush
'Cause you break hearts in a hush
Of your simply pretty voice
I have to bury my feelings I have no choice
Your simple yet beautiful stares make me flush.  

I shouldn't be doing this to myself.

  I know this is crazy
Or maybe it's not.
But I've never seen anyone
As beautiful as you 

My heart was shattering piece by piece.

  My Heart Picks Up
Every time I See Him.
All I Have To Do
Is See If He Likes Me.
I'm So Nervous,
But I'm Excited.  

I threw my poem book on the floor and cried. I never had strong feelings for anyone like this before, but the fact that he doesn't like me back kills me inside.

I'm so tired of all the shit going on in my life and this just adds to it. 

I picked up the poem book again and started ripping out the pages. I was going delusional.

I put all of the pages in a bag and walked to the river near my house. Tears flowed down my face the entire time I was walking. When I got to the river, I sat on a rock next to the water and looked around.

The river had so many trees, and plants around it. The water flowed and made calm noises. I opened my bag and took out one of the poems. I didn't bother to read it so I just ripped it in half.

Just when I was about to throw the paper in the water, I heard someone call my name.

"ZOE!!!!!" The voice sounded familiar.

Wait.

What

The

Fuck.

It's Corban.

"Zoe!" He called as he neared me.

"How did you find me?"

"Well you weren't in 5th period so I asked Bree if she knew where you were and she told me that you like to come here when you are upset."

Damn it Bree, this is my secret place.

"What's that in your hand?"

"Oh... nothing." I tried to hide it but he snatched it from my hand. 

He put the two pieces together and read it. The expressions on his face made butterflies form in my stomach. He was smirking... and blushing.

His eyes looked into mine, then at my open bag. He reached and grabbed all of the other poems and continued to read.

"Corban..." I said.

"Shh, I like these."

My face was turning redder every second that he continued to read the love poems that I wrote about him. He was smiling, laughing, blushing, smirking, and more. It was like he was feeling a Roller Coaster of emotions. I sat down on the rock and just kept looking at his facial expressions.

When he got to the last poem, I was probably as red as a tomato. I couldn't stop shaking. He handed me the stack of poems and looked into my eyes. I looked into his. They sparkled so bright, like a shining star.

"I...uh." I stuttered while standing. "I should get home."

"No, stay." He stepped in front of me and grabbed my hands. "Zoe, I have a confession."

"W-What is it?" I can't stop stuttering.

"I don't have a girlfriend." 

HE IS SINGLE!?

OH BOY OH BOY OH BOY OH BOY!?

"Why did you lie?" I raised my eyebrow.

"It's a very personal reason that I haven't told anyone. I'm not sure if I'm ready to tell anyone." His faced saddened.

"I respect if your not ready to tell me but I do keep secrets no matter what. I will support you if you tell me."

"It's kind of embarrassing, and I'm scared." his eyes sparkled so much.

"It's okay, you can tell me."

"Okay." He sat down and so did I.

To be continued...