Love Peoms

XXII

 I woke up the next morning and looked over at my clock.

7:30

I was going to be late to school. I jumped out of bed and got dressed. I decided to skip breakfast to save time. I brushed my teeth and put on my shoes then went to school. When I checked my phone, I saw I had multiple texts from Corban.

Good Morning Beautiful <3

I just wanted to say I'm sorry about yesterday. We all say things we don't mean. I would never intend to hurt you. You don't deserve that.

Babe, are you okay? You're usually awake by now.

I'm really sorry. I hope you aren't ignoring me.

Babe?

I'll leave you alone I guess...

I texted him back.

I'm so sorry I didn't respond, I overslept

Once I got to school, I went to the office to get a late pass. Once I sat down, Corban looked over at me and smiled. I winked at him

I was still upset with him but I'm trying to move past that. Moving on is the best thing to do. What he said really did hurt me but he loves me and I love him.

The bell rang and we all got out of our seats.

"Hey Zoe. I just wanted to apologize for what I said yesterday again." He shot me a pathetic smile.

"It's okay." I looked down and walked away.

"Zoe!" He yelled.

I kept walking to my next class. I know I seemed fine yesterday after he apologized but after sleeping and letting my brain process everything, I realized how truly hurtful everything he said was. To be honest, all I want to do is go into the bathroom and cry. I want to cry until all of the pain is gone.

At lunch, I sat outside under a tree where there's shade. Corban texted me.

Where are you? 

I ignored his message and checked my social media. After a few minutes, I heard footsteps approach me. I looked up to see Corban's pathetic smile looking down at me. He sat down in front of me.

"How'd you find me?" I asked.

"I know people." He responded with a chuckle, "Anyways, what happened earlier? You seemed upset even though you were fine yesterday."

"I know and I'm sorry, I thought about it and what you said really hurt. You didn't even say it to my face! Instead you told my best friend while you thought I was asleep. How stupid do you think I am!? Do you just not trust me!?"

"No I do. I really do."

"Prove it!" I cried out.

"I don't know how. You're really confusing me."

"Yeah well you hurt me!"

"There's no reason to yell. I care about you and want you to be happy. We all say things we don't mean and trust me, I wish I could take all of what I said back."

"Yeah well I have some things I do mean to say."

"Okay, tell me."

"You're an asshole Corban! Who says those things about the one they love?! Especially after they almost got raped!? What is actually wrong with you!? I hate you!"

Corban's eyes watered. He got up slowly and walked away, not looking back once.

I felt no pity for him. Instead I just sat there and watched my surroundings. All the people sitting in groups, laughing and having fun. I wish I could be like that. I wish I wasn't always hung up on a boyfriend and just got to have fun with an amazing group of friends but no, I'm stuck.

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After school, I was walking to my locker until Bree stopped me.

"Zoe!" She yelled.

I turned around, "Yes?"

"Can I come over? We need to talk." 

"Sure."

We drove to my house in silence and went into my messy room. I sat in my desk chair and she sat on my bed, looking at me.

"What?" I asked as she stared at me.

"Do you really love Corban?" 

"Of course I do!" I wasn't completely positive about my response.

"I can hear the doubt in your face. You guys just don't belong together. Maybe you should see other people." She bit her lip.

"Bree..." She cut me off.

"Come on Zoe. You know you don't love him like you used to." I could see the lust in her eyes as she spoke.

"Bree stop!"

"Stop what? You know I'm right." She stood up and stepped closer to me.

"Bree please stop!" I was shaking.

"Calm down Zoe. You know you want me." She fluttered her eye lids.

"Maybe I don't love him but what makes you think I love you any more?"

"This..." She grabbed my face and kissed me hard.

"Bree!" I yelled.

"Ssshhhh."

She pulled me back in forcefully and move her lips against mine. I eventually relaxed and started to enjoy the kiss. I don't know why I enjoyed it, but I did.

It felt so wrong but for some reason, I liked it. Maybe because I knew it was wrong and it could get me in trouble.

I quickly snapped out of it.

"Bree, I can't. Stop kissing me and leave." I said with a firm tone in my voice.

"Zoe..." She muttered.

"Leave. Right now." I pointed to the door with my finger.

She got up and left without saying bye or looking back. I didn't feel bad at all. She was the one who kissed me.

Let's just hope Corban doesn't find out.