Love Peoms

XIV

Chapter 14- 

The next day at school, I wore a long sleeve shirt so no one could see the bloody gauze on my arm. 

I texted Bree and told her to meet me in the bathroom before first period. I didn't want to go to that class because Corban was in it. Unfortunately, I did have more classes with Corban later in the day.

I went into the girls bathroom at the back of the school. That's the bathroom that no one ever goes to. When the bell rang, Bree entered the bathroom and ran up to me.

"Zoe!" She yelled. She pecked my lips and hugged me tightly.

"Calm down." I laughed. "I'm okay."

"I love you so much, I'm sorry this is happening to you." She pulled away and looking down.

"Don't be sorry, it's my fault. I will just have to deal with the consequences."

"We all screw up at times. People need to learn how to forgive."

"What I did was not forgivable. God I hate myself!" Tears flowed from my eyes.

"Zoe, everything is going to be okay." She took both of my hands and looked into my eyes. "Trust me." 

"I'm sorry." I chuckled while looking down.

"Don't be sorry." She let go of my hands and wrapped them around my waist. 

"I'm sorry I can't help it." I smiled as I put my hands around her neck.

She leaned in a pressed her lips against mine. She kept pulling me closer and closer. I could feel the warmth of her body against mine. It made me feel safe. I still felt like something was missing.

"What's wrong?" She could see the sadness in my face.

"Nothing." I fake smiled and kissed her.  

As we pressed our lips together, I felt her bite my lip.

"Hey." I said against her mouth.

I heard her chuckle so I decided to bite her lip as well. We just ended having a lip biting battle. Our battle was interrupted by the 10 minutes bell, signaling that we only have 10 minutes left of first period. 

"We can stay another period." She chuckled after we pulled apart.

"I'm going to get in trouble."

"Please, for me?" She quivered her lips.

"Fine." I laughed as I pulled her back in.

I bit her lip while opening my mouth and I heard her moan. I pulled away and broke out laughing.

"What?" She smiled. "Got a problem with the noises I make?"

 I put my arms around her neck. "This is why I love you." I smiled and pecked her lips. The bell rang indicating that 1st period was over.

She pushed her lips against mine. She took her hands off of my waist and pushed them in between us.

"What are you doing?" I said sarcastically against her lips.

"Shh." 

She worked her hands around until the were at the bottom of my shirt. We continued kissing as we moved her hands up inside my shirt. She continued up until she felt my bra. I could feel her hands touching my skin. We heard the bell ring that signaled 2nd period was starting.

She worked her hands inside my bra and rested them on my boobs. Then it hit me, this is not correct. She is not the one I'm in love with. I am in love with Corban.

I pulled away. "Wait."

She slowly pulled her hands out of my shirt. "What's wrong?"

"I can't do this." I looked around for a few seconds then ran out of the bathroom. 

I ran outside into a little area outside of the art room that is surrounded by trees and bushed so no one could see inside it.

I sat against the tree and cried into my hands. I missed Corban so much. I love him, more than Bree. I have to break up with her.

I heard footsteps from outside of the area. I lifted my head and looked at the source of the sound.

"Zoe?" Bree walking inside. "What's wrong?" She saw that I was crying.

"I can't do this anymore." I cried out. 

"What?" Her eyes watered.

"I miss Corban." Tears flowed from my eyes. "I'm so sorry but I can't be with you anymore."

"Zoe, It's okay. I understand. If you need to, just break up with me." Tears fell from her eyes. "Please, just do it." 

I could see the pain in her eyes.  

"I'm sorry Bree."  

"I'm going to miss you. Hopefully we can still be friends." A sad smile formed on her lips.

"Of course we can."

"One last kiss?" She asked.

I got up and pressed my lips against hers for the last time.

"I love you Bree." 

"I love you too Zoe."

I walked back into the school and went into my second period class which was PE. Everyone looked at me and that's when I realized, I had just been crying so my mascara is running and my face is red. I saw Corban looking at me as well.

"Ms. Payton, why are you late to my class?" The teacher asked me.

"I woke up late." I mumbled while walking to my to the dressing room.

"What?"

"I woke up late!!!" I yelled.

"Go to the office right now!" The teacher yelled.

"Fine!" I stormed out of the gym and went into the hallway. I didn't want to go to the office.

I sat in the hall and cried. I was never going to get Corban back. I hurt him.

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After school I went straight home and cried in my room. My mom had work until 10 tonight so I was home alone.

I pulled out a piece of paper and a pencil.

I'm sorry for hurting you, like the way I do
I'm sorry for the hurtful things I always say to you
We know the fight will never last
but still the amount they do
I'd like to say I'm sorry for everything I put you through.

It kills me when we fight, and it scares me too
I always make you cry and it kills me when you do
As I write this now, I know this much is true
I love you with all my heart and will always be with you

I put the poem in my back pack. I had a plan, a good plan. I was going to give this poem to Corban but putting it in his locker first thing in the morning. I'm not sure if this will work, but I'm hoping it will.