Love Peoms

XVII

Chapter 18-

The next day at school, I tried to avoid people as much as possible. I wasn't sure if word had gotten around that I cut myself so I just tried to keep a low profile.

During class, I could tell a few people were trying to get a good glimpse at my arm. When I took over at them, they quickly turned their head and pretended nothing happened. I wore a sweatshirt but sometimes is would come up a few inches so you could see the cuts.

I was tired of being an "attention whore". That's not who I am, I was just depressed. 

At lunch, I spent it with Corban outside. There was a private grass area next to a staircase that we liked to spend time together at. No one was around and we got a lot of privacy. 

We both sat down and I broke down. I put my head on his shoulder and cried. He held me tight and told me everything was going to be okay, even though I knew that was a lie. 

I fucked up my life so much, I don't know what to do anymore. I kissed a girl while a was dating him, I cut myself, we got back together, and now I'm annoying him with my drama. I have put him through so much. He doesn't deserve this, he deserves better. I basically cheated on him.

"I'm so sorry." I cried into his shoulder. "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry." I kept repeating it. 

"Why are you apologizing?" He asked as I lifted my head.

"I just feel bad." I wiped the tears from my eyes. "I have put you through so much and you deserve better. I'm sorry. You deserve so much better." More tears fell from my eyes.

"Zoe, you are so amazing. You are only human, we all mess up and that's what forgiveness is for." He pushed my hair out of my face.

"But, I didn't just mess up, I fucked up really bad."

"You're only human Zoe."

"I'm a horrible human." I looked down.

"No you aren't. You are such an amazing person and I'm so happy that we are together." He shot me a faint smile.

"Thank you." I continued to look down.

He lifted my chin with his pointer finger. "I love you Zoe." He kissed me then lowered his hand.

"I love you too." I spoke quietly.

"It's going to be okay." He held my hand and gave me a reassuring nod. 

"I hope so." 

"Zoe, please believe me when I tell you this, the future is going to be much better. It may be hard now but you have to get through it."

"But-" He kissed me. 

"No buts." He said with his lips close to mine. He kissed me again.

I looked down at my lap and we were just silent for a few minutes. I was trying my best not to cry even more. 

Eventually, he broke the silence. 

"You're so beautiful." He looked at me with his soft gray eyes. "I feel like I don't tell you that enough."

"Thank you." I blushed.

He leaned over and pushed his lips against mine. In the middle of our kiss, the damn bell rang. We slowly parted from each other.

"Fucking bell." He chuckled. "Ruining the moment." 

He quickly kissed me again and we both got up. He held me in a tight hug and kissed me a few more times before we went to our next class. We walked together to choir.

After choir, we said goodbye to each other and went to our next classes. On my way to my next class, I felt someone grab my butt. I turned around and saw a tall guy with black hair walking away from me. The hallway wasn't very crowded so it was obvious that he had grabbed it. 

I stood there for a few seconds in shock until someone yelled at me to move. I couldn't believe that a random guy would do that to me. Does he even know me? 

I slowly walked to my next class, still in shock. 

After school, I went to my locker to get my binders. As I was taking the binders out of my locker, a guy came up to me. 

"Hey." He said.

I turned around and I recognized the height and the hair. It was the guy from earlier. He was also wearing the same clothes.

"What do you want?" I said as I closed and leaned against my locker. I put my backside against the locker so he wouldn't be able to grab it again.

"Wow, someone's in a bad mood." He leaned his arm against the locker next to me so he got really close to me. "If you want, I could make you feel better."

"I have to go." I said sharply. I tried to leave but he pushed me against my locker. He got really close to my face and breathed heavily.

"If I were you, I wouldn't pass up on that offer." He winked at me.

"Get the fuck away from me!" I tried to push him off but he was stronger than me. I didn't stand a chance against him.

"Don't leave." He spoke softly as he ran his hand through my hair.

I had to act quick, he might do something bad to me. I took my leg and kneed him where no man ever wants to be kneed.

"Ow! You fucker!" He yelled as he retreated and held were I kneed him. 

"Don't ever come close to me again." I demanded.

I quickly picked up my backpack and ran outside. Corban had to leave right after school so I was on my own. I needed to just go home and get away from school.

I walked home as quick as I possible could and broke down in tears. When I got home, I lied down on my bed and cried into my pillow like a 5 year old throwing a fit.

I was so tired of everyone making fun of me and using me. I was known as an "attention whore" and now there is a perverted guy after me. What the fuck am I supposed to do?

I can't escape this hell.