Confessions: Thug and his Baby Mama

Chapter 9-I'm Helping You Out

SYNÏA'S POV

I woke up the next morning still wrapped in Quincy's arms. I was so comfortable in his arms I didn't want to get up but he felt me wake up.

"Good morning"

"Good morning", I hurried up and ran to the bathroom throwing up.

"D*mn what's wrong with you?", he came in the bathroom holding my hair back.

"I think I had to much to drink last night that's it"

"I thought you went to work"

"I did", I threw up again.

"Okay. Well I called Mayanna and she said she didn't want to leave yet and James said she could stay since they were doing something for her for the rest of the week"

"So she's going to be gone until when?"

"Saturday"

"No that's a long time. I miss my baby I need to go get her"

"Wait. She's good let her have fun she need to get her mind off of what happened the other night anyway. Now wash up and do something to yo hair cause it's a mess". Wow like for real. I went from having a good night and waking up happy to this.

I brushed my teeth and did my hygiene and got dressed for today and I need to count my money. I started looking for my bags but I didn't see them so I went to Mayanna's room and they weren't in there either. I opened the linen closet and my bags were out in there on the floor but my clothes weren't in there.

"Quincy where did you out my clothes?"

"They're in the closet"

"No they aren't I looked in there already"

"Not the linen closet"

I went and looked in his room and my clothes were all hung up. I closed the closet and I went in the living room and I sat on the couch.

"Why you playing with me?"

"What are. You talking about?"

"Every since that night with Prince you've been playing in my head. You told me you loved me then said we couldn't be together. Then you told me to come sleep in the bed with you but you said I need to get my own place and get on my feet. You held my hair in the bathroom but then you told me my hair was a mess and then you hang my clothes up in your closet. Please tell me what's going on and where I stand because this is confusing to me"

"What you want? I'm being hard on you to make you stronger. I want you to be comfortable with yourself and not be so dependent on people. I want you to stand in your own two feet and know that when it comes down to it the only important person in yo life is Mayanna. I know you feel that way but if something happen to me or even if nothing happen you need to be self sufficient and take care of her and you by yourself. Yeah I do love you but right now I want you to find yourself"

" I can't do it by myself though. If you weren't there with me while I was pregnant I think I would've had a miscarriage to be honest. My parents abandoned me when they found out I got pregnant. They love Mayanna but they don't deal with me anymore, my family lives in Germany and Italy so I didn't have them. The uncle you thought was my uncle isn't my real uncle I just called him that so you wouldn't think of me any different when we were dating since my family wasn't all together. I can't take care of Mayanna by myself heck I can barely take care of myself"

"Yes you can and that's why you can stay here. I'm not going to do nothing for you but provide you a place to stay and when you doing you for sure, then you really won't need me anymore"

"Thanks for everything. But now that we have that out that way can we talk about us. I miss you"

"I was missing you for the year I thought you were dead. You don't know how many nights I cried for you but I had to stay strong for Mayanna. Y'all were the reasons I did what I did and I stopped laying as much attention to Mayanna because it was hard looking in that little girls face seeing you"

"I'm sorry. I can't take that back, I've done everything I can for you to forgive me but you won't even forgive me. We don't have to be us I just want you to forgive me. I learned from my mistake and I'm trying you have to give me at least that much because I am trying. I love you just please", I was crying and yelling I'm just an emotional wreck.

"It wasn't easy but I did forgive you. I wanted us to be a family. When I saw you for the first time I was like let's leave this behind us and move on as a family but I needed amswers. I wanted to know what the point of you doing that was. You caused so much pain in my life and if I don't get all this out then I will always have what you did in the back of my mind. You can't blame anybody for what you did because you had a choice to go through with it or not. You had a faithful thug. I brought home money for us, I'm a provider, I took care of you and my daughter and when people were in my ear telling me she wasn't mine I still stayed with you so f*ck yo excuses. Synïa you weren't ready to grow up and be a woman that's yo problem. All them tears you crying right now I could give a d*mn about. You didn't care about the tears yo 4 year old daughter was crying every night for you so tell me why I should care about yours"

"Why didn't you tell me that's how you felt?", I said with tears still coming down my face.

"You knew that that's why. When did I ever cheat on you? When was I ever messing around with females? When was I not there for you? When did I not make sure you and Mayanna had everything y'all needed?...HUH?...ANSWER ME!!"

"NEVER!!", I said crying even harder.

"Alright then all the questions you had have been answered. But for real though I think you stepped out on my. You felt guilty so you tried to make me the bad guy so you could have an excuse on why you did it"

"No I never cheated on you. I could never do that. And yeah you are the perfect man right? You did everything right and you were perfect"

"I never said I was perfect. I could've done better but I would've helped. You can't get in the ring if the other person won't. I couldn't help our relationship if you weren't willing to try. And to be honest I didn't think anything was wrong because you never told me, threw hints yiu weren't happy, or anything so how was I supposed to know?"

"You weren't I guess"

"Yeah. I'm done talking, just let what I said sink into your head. I'll be back later and if you leave lock the door and call if you want to get back in the house"

"I can't have a key?"

"You think I trust you enough to get a key to my apartment when you had a female come into my home with my daughter and play like we were supposed to be together just for her to take my daughter? Girl you lucky I'm leaving you here by yourself now". He grabbed my keys from off the bar and walked out the apartment. I was highly pissed off but he do have a point. I lost something that good.

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