She's Not Afraid

Chapter 50

Cayla's POV

"Cayla why are your arms bruised?" Perrie asked with worry in her voice. I sat there dumbfounded. Harry had hurt me. He had physically hurt me. My heart just shattered. Tears began welling in my eyes.

"Harry," i said in disbelief. I just looked at my arms for the longest time. I couldnt believe this..

"When did he do this to you?" She asked in a calm voice. I looked up at her expecting to see a calm expression that matched her voice but instead i saw that her eyes were filled with hatred. She looked so angry that she might punch someone.

"He didnt mean to. We were at the mall and my friend Trey said something and Harry got all defensive and pulled me away, pushed me against the wall, and yelled at me. He pinned my arms to my sides," i said sadly.

"Cayla you dont understand. Harry cant control himself when he is mad. He truly can be dangerous," Perrie said looking me in the eyes. I knew she was telling the truth. Id seen him have that outlash on Zayn that one time. I just didnt think me would hurt me.

"But only if he is angry," i said reassuringly. Perrie shook her head. She moved over to my side of the booth and held my hands in hers.

"No Cayla. He needs to realize that he cant lash out on you like that. If he ever does anything like that again i want you to hit him," Perrie said. I was prepared to scream at her because that frustrated me.

"I cant hit h-" i began but i choked on my words as tears rolled down my cheeks.

"Shhh! Shh! Baby its ok. Calm down. I know you dont want to but in the long run its better than you getting hurt. Harry needs to learn to control himself. Promise me that you will protect yourself?" Perrie asked cradling me like a baby.

"Ok," i whispered. Perrie sat there holding me until the tears had stopped flowing and my sobbing had turned into an occasional hiccup.

We stood up and went to my mom's car starting our drive home.


Harry's POV

As soon as Perrie and Cayla had drove off i stormed into her house. I sat on her couch and placed my face in my hands.

What had i done? I had totally turned on Cayla. She probably hates me now. We are going to break up and im gonna die alone and unhappy and she will die married and still gorgeous. I shook my head.

"HARRY! What the hell did you do?" Zayn asked obviously furious as the boys stormed into the house.

"None of your business," i said. I was pissed off. I didnt need them interfering with my love life. I pushed past them and began walking towards the stairs.

"Harry! Tell us now what you did!" Zayn said yelling. I turned and Zayn was just a few steps away from me.

"Get out of my face," i said through gritted teeth. Louis stepped up next to Zayn.

"Just tell us what happened. We have the right to know. We care about her," Louis said.

"You dont care about her! Im the only one that loves her! You guys dont deserve to even know her," i said screaming.

"The way that youre acting now you dont deserve her either!" Zayn yelled. I clenched my fists not wanting to hit anyone.

"I didnt mean to!" I said sadly. Liam stepped up and grabbed my shoulders.

"What did you do?" He asked. I flipped him around and pinned him to the wall just like i had done to Cayla.

"This," i said still holding Liam in that position. Louis nodded his head deep in thought.

"And then?"

"Then i yelled at her." I released Liam and looked at the ground.

"Harry! You realize you hurt Cayla?" Louis said frowning. I look up at his face.

"You dont know that," i said defensively. Louis shakes his head.

"Yes Harry. I do know. You for sure emotionally hurt her and mentally hurt her. You most likely physically hurt her too," Louis said sadly. I felt a knot in my throat form.

Suddenly the front door burst open and Cayla walked in along with a pissed Perrie behind her. Cayla walked upstairs without acknowledging us. I started up the stairs to go talk to her.

"No! Hell no! All of you outside. NOW!" Perrie screamed pointing at the door and glaring at me. We shuffled outside quickly. After Perrie had followed us out there i huffed.

"Ok what do you need?" I asked rolling my eyes. Perrie walked over to me and glared at me. I rolled my eyes again.

She took her hand and smacked me upside the head. I groaned.

"What is wrong with you? Why the hell did you do that?" She said through gritted teeth.

"I didnt mean to," i said defensively. Perrie began laughing. Not a real laugh, more like a pity laugh.

"You didnt mean to? Harry man up! You physically abused Cayla in public! She had bruised arms and a broken heart thanks to your stupidity!" Perrie screamed slapping me again.

"Her arms are what?" Zayn asked stepping up to Perrie.

"Bruised. They have big bruises from where Harry decided to pin her against the wall!" Perrie said balling her hands into fists. Zayn looked at me.

"Harry i want to hit you so badly right now. But that wouldnt fix anything. Grow up! Stop having little outbursts on everyone whenever you feel like it! Cuz i swear the next time something like this happens i will punch you right in the face," Zayn said shaking his hands around so that he wouldnt hit me. I sighed.

"I know. And im sorry," i said looking at everyone and giving them a sorry look.

"We dont need an apology. Go talk to Cayla," Zayn said pointing to her house. I nodded my head and ran inside. I ran up the stairs and to her room. I knocked on the door.

"Come in," she said. I opened the door slowly. Cayla was sitting on her bed clutching her pillow. She didnt even look up.

I frowned at the sad sight in front of me. I couldnt stand seeing her like this. I crawled onto her bed and sat next to her. I took her hands in mine.

"Cayla you are my favorite girl in the whole world. You know that, right?" I ask her. She nods her head. I continue talking.

"And you know i would never purposely hurt you or make you sad, right?" I asked resting my head against hers.

"Yes," she whispered choking on the word. I felt that lump in my throat again. I made her upset like this. I pulled her onto my lap so she was straddling me.

"Cayla, you are the most special girl ive ever met in my entire life. You are the most gorgeous girl in the whole world," i said kissing her nose. She laughed.

"Not," she whispered.

"Cayla Jean Clauss is the most gorgeous person inside and out that ive ever met. No doubt in my mind whatsoever. She is kind, she is smart, she is special, and i love her. She is the most genuine person. She loves me for being me. Nothing attached. Its just love between us two. Even when we fight, its out of love. Even when we yell, its out of love. Everything i do in this world i do for you Cayla," i say tilting her chin up to look at me. A tear rolls down her cheek and i wipe it away with my thumb.

"Even when we cry, its out of love," i whisper. She kisses me softly on the lips.

I pick her up and place her on her bed softly. I walk over to Perrie's bag and pull out the small present that we all agreed to give to her. I hand it to her.

"Harry this is your new cd," Cayla said smiling. I smile back at her.

"I know. We all thought that you should be one of the first ones to have it," i said kissing her forehead.

"Thank you," she said smiling. She got up and walked to her desk. She put the cd in her computer and began playing the album. She skipped Best Song Ever. I frowned.

"Hey why did you do that?" I asked sadly. She smiled and crawled back onto her bed and snuggled into me.

"Because i already know that whole song," she said. I smiled and we began listening to Story Of My Life.

I sang each song into her ear and we laid there for a few hours just listening to the songs on repeat.

"I love you Cayla."

"I love you too Harry."

She kissed my lips and cuddled back into me. I was glad we werent fighting. I was glad she could forgive me. I just hoped and prayed that it would never happen again..

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Im soooooooooooooo sorry its been this long!!!! Well i have reasons. Well you see my grandma had had cancer and right around the last time i updated it got really bad. So i had been visiting her and helping her. So i didnt have time for anything. Well then she began getting better but then she got real sick and then she umm well she passed away December 23, 2013. My grandma was an awesome lady. Im still not fully back to being me. Without her it just feels weird. So im sorry if you were waiting for so long but my grandma was dying, i had to put my writing on hold. My other reason is that again i had written this chapter and it had magically got deleted and i was furious because i CRIED while writing this chapter. I know it isnt as good but i think its still pretty good. But im back and should be here and updating each week <3 im sorry and i love youu