Written in the Paper

LXX.

"I feel so tired...lately.

I haven't sang out loud in my car for so long. It's as though I lost my voice and not even my favorite songs could cheer me up. Every song sounds like static to me.

I haven't slept that well in a week, still driving in the bright early morning just to go to a place that makes me feel even more tired.

My crying gets more visible each day. It's hard to keep a poker face when I know that people expect me to cry and when I do cry they leave me out to dry.

There's no one I truly feel comfortable to go talk about it with now. It just to be my mother, my friends, my advisor, but now it's no one.

I'm a little tired, but I'll be fine..."