Midsummer's || dks + pcy || discontinued

I'm Not Sorry

|| Kyungsoo ||

Ronnie felt different.

Instead of the silky stands of hair I was used to, the strands of hair that were always soft from the top of her scalp to the ends of her hair, instead I felt curls, soft curls that tangled in my fingers as I slowly pulled my fingers through them. Ronnie's hair was naturally curly, but she never wore it so.

Her hair smelled of coconuts, not apples. It was a sweet smell that made your stomach grumble, not a sharp smell that made your mouth water.

She wasn't angled away from me, as she usually was. Her body was pressed flush against me, the soft skin of her thigh tossed gently over mine.

I felt her steady breaths tickle my collarbone, the warmth of it a sharp contrast from the cold room of the apartment. Though my brain was both foggy from sleep and an overconsumption of alcohol, I managed to lift my arm that wasn't under her body and pulled her closer, the warmth of my body meeting her skin, cold to the touch.

It wasn't until I opened my eyes, squinting them against the sunlight that streamed in from the open curtains, that I realized that the body pressed flush against mine didn't belong to my girlfriend, but to Morgan, Ronnie's best friend. I sat, with her body curled against mine for awhile, the winter sun doing nothing to warm us. Eventually it clicked that this situation wasn't right, that the wrong person was laying in bed with me. I sat up quickly, causing Morgan's body to collapse onto bed, a soft sound slipping from her plump lips before she blinked her eyes open, staring up at the ceiling.

"Wha-" The inquisitive question almost slipped from my lips, but everything rushed back. Her name on my tongue, the feeling of her body clenching against mine as she came. I licked my lips, and tilted my head back against the fluffy pillow that had supported my head last night. Ronnie's cooling pillow, the one she had begged for for months, was tossed onto the ground, the cooling gels within chilling the carpet beneath it. "Did you sleep well?"

I was met with silence, and I glanced down at Morgan. Her tanned cheeks were filled with a deep blush, her plump lips, that had uttered my name well into the early morning hours, were parted. Her wide brown eyes darted around, and I was reminded slightly of a frightened animal. Her muscles bunched when I shifted my leg, as if she were ready to dash.

"I uh," her gaze flickered again, never settling fully on me, "I slept fine. Thank you." She gave a curt nod, and made to move off of the bed, the sheets falling around her, and briefly, she reminded me of a goddess. The way her hair fell in curly waves down to the middle of her back. The way the pale winter sun hit just right on her skin. I reached out and grasped her ankle in my hand. The muscles under her skin jumped and she gasped.

"Where are you going?" I muttered, shifting so instead of leaning against the headboard, I now sat close to Morgan, the heat of my body radiating towards hers, making her grit her teeth. Bruises dotted her hips, and her wrists and I felt the slight urge to apologize. "You wanted this," I breathed the words into the space between us, "just as much as I did."

She didn't turn to face me, but I watched her shoulders bunch under her tanned skin. A soft breath broke the silence, and Morgan slowly settled down on the mattress at my side, her eyes locked on her crossed legs. "Kyungsoo," Her voice sounded thick with emotion, but those eyes that had pleaded with me last night to drive my dick deeper and deeper into her soaking center were still fixated on the comforter that covered most of her body, as if the plain design was the most intricate thing in the world. "This was a mistake." Her jaw worked. "A stupid one. I-"

"You didn't think it was a mistake last night." I felt a surge of anger, my heart race increase, but I managed to keep my voice level, my eyes boring into the side of her head. "I remember, " the words curled from my tongue, "you calling me daddy." The words made her eyes widen and lips part. "You begged me."