Our Lives-(boyXboy)

Chapter 11

Simon

If someone had told me that Leo will blow his fuse, man I don't want to see when he blows the other fuses in his head.

It was for the very first time I have ever seen Leo looked so angry and disappointed at anyone. I mean which parent wouldn't be disappointed?

I know John had his last straw with me and honestly I only did it to back up Jaden and get away from Ana. Sigh, I hate her, sickening and annoying.

After Jaden and I got out ear filled with lecture we went to our rooms. I know he was sulking and crying and all I wanted was to rush over to his room and wipe away his tears, hold him to my chest as he falls asleep.

I know deep down he won't believe anything I say to him now, but only if I get him to listen to me, just once I'll be able to get everything off my chest. All my pent up feelings, all my emotions, I don't want to scare him but I want to have him all to myself.

If I only have someone to help me, just one person who will hear me out and offer their assistance. Sitting on my bed I ramble off people who might me compassionate enough to help me. I mean I was a jerk at high school and I don't really deserve their help.

After I have cancelled all the names of people who will help, none of them would want to help so after all my list of names zeroed in on nothing. I sat there for some time until the light bulb went off in my head. Leo, I whispered, if not him John. I smiled to myself and got up to head out the room.

As I was about to walk out the room, Jaden passed me not even noticing me by the door way. It's like I didn't exist anymore. His face full of so many emotions, his eyes red and his cheeks stained with a slight pink.

I watched on as he went down the stairs, I didn't follow him but listened for when his footsteps echoed in the distance. I made my way when I know he was out of air and I assume he had gone to talk to his uncle.

Instead I changed my mind from going to Leo, since he already beat me to him, so I went to John. I know I have to brace myself from a good blow from John. I have a valid reason why I took part blame and I'll tell him my reason why.

As I made my way to John's office, I heard talking coming from his office. I pressed my ear to the door and attempted to listen to the conversation happeneing there. But to no anvil, I could only hear mumbles.

Curse you John for having a sound proof house. Sighing I kept my ear to the door and still tried, until I heard that familiar voice. That young masculine voice of his, Jaden I sighed. A tear rolled from my eyes as I think about how much I've hurt him. It was not my intention to hurt him.

You know eaves dropping are not a nice thing to do! I jumped and hold my chest as I turn and came face to face with Leo. His eyes softened when he saw tears in my eyes.

I'm not usually that guy that cries over everything, but crying over Jaden is worth it.

Simon, what happened? He asked softly, I was about to answer when he cut me off going papa bear mode with his crazy rants.

Don't tell me John made you cry, did he hit you, body slam you what did he do Simon? He asked in rage. Tell me Simon, I'll give him an earful and bust his balls. I'll punish him. He was about to say more but I doubled over laughing.

What is it Simon, why were or are you crying young man? He asked in a serious tone. I composed myself, I know fun and joke is done when he is in serious mode.

I straightened myself and was about to talk when he cut me off again. Oh gosh, does this guy ever stop cutting off people.

First of all why you are eaves dropping on your brother and Jaden conversation and why the heck were you crying? He pulled me into the library and we both took a sat opposite the other and I composed my thoughts as to how to proceed.

Firstly Leo, I'm sorry! I sighed, do you mean it Simon? He asked and I nodded.

Relax Simon; and take your time to say what is on your mind, he said calmly

I let out a sharp breath that I didn't know I was holding in.

As I was saying, my confidence boost came from nowhere and that confused me even more. I'm really sorry; I didn't mean to embarrass you all at school. It was a misunderstanding. We didn't mean to ruin the café or anything.

We didn't think about the after effects of the furniture or anything, we got carried away. I'm really sorry Leo, I really am. I only did it for Jaden I didn't want him taking the fall alone.

I'm honestly and truly sorry for everything, please forgive me! I pleaded like a child begging his parents for a new toy. Tears stung my eyes, but I pushed then back. I didn't want to break down in-front of him.

Is there anything else you will like to add to that Simon? He pressed. I looked at him, confusion etched my features and he said one name that caused my tears to submerge.

What is going on between you and Jaden, Simon? I sighed and regain myself thoughts.

To be honest there is lots that happened between us, one minute it was bliss and the next it's a sour fruit.

I get that Simon, keep going.

You see, weeks before the bon fire, something came over me; it was like for the first time I ever realized how handsome and loving Jaden is. It was for the first time I've seen him like that. How proud we are for each other and how proud you all are of us.

That week all I thought about was asking him to be mines. I wanted him to myself. I had suspicion that he liked me long before I realized it.

Leo keeps nodding and kept listening.

So the night of the bon fire, when I practically begged him to go with me at the bon fire. I know he will agree with me on whatever, but that night all I had plan was to ask him to be my boyfriend and stop my man whoring.

In all honesty there is only one guy out there for me, and while I was whoring about he was a saint and caring. He is the purest guy I ever laid my eyes on and the only guy I can see myself with.

So at the bin fire what happened? Leo asked.

I scratched the back of my neck. Debating on if I should give him the full thing or not. Sighing I'll have to give him the censored version.

When we arrive at the beach, some chicks wrapped themselves around me. I got a little drunk but a buzz where I know myself and what not. I saw Jaden walking down the beach by himself, and I chose that opportunity to follow him.

As I catch up with him, all I could think about as kissing him. After we kissed one thing lead to another and before we know what was happening we were naked in the water doing it.

Leo eyes opened widely. You had sex with my nephew? He shouted making my flinch but I nodded. His eyes darkened and I didn't know if I should proceed or not.

After that, he asked.

Well when we were done, I left him there. I told him everything I know I had to and it will make everything better. He listened and it was for the first time I felt light. It was like a weight was lifted off me. I felt happy

Simon, you have to fix that problem between you and Jaden. All I can do offer what help I can so you can talk to him.

I will admit you hurt him and hurt is not something someone gets over just randomly. If you truly love him as you told me. Go find him and proclaim you love for him.

And Simon, you have to always remember no matter what you do, our love for you will not lessen. You have been forgiven long before you know.

You know it's good to talk to John, meet him half way too. He is stubborn, show him the respect and love he needs from and believe it or not you will have and get anything you want from your brother.

He is not a beast you know, and neither am I. Also when you want someone to talk to find someone reliable, understanding and caring to talk to, it don't have to be John and I or Joey anyone but make sure you get everything you have bottled in, out.

I watched his retreating back as he exit the room. Relaxing back into the chair only one person to face and that's the guy who is going to complete me. I just hope he hears me out.