Our Lives-(boyXboy)

Chapter 13

Chapter 13

Simon

How can I be so stupid? I kept asking myself over and over.

I know he meant no harm, yet I went up to his face, why if you asked me? I have no clue. I don't know if it was because of his sass or how he looked just standing there.

I just had to be the perfect ass to make him cry. Why, why, why? I kept shouting at myself.

I hope he didn't mean anything he said. I pray he didn't mean anything, if he only knew what he did to me, if he only knew how he ripped my heart out and if he only knew how much I love him.

I hate myself for hurting him, I hate for the fact that I hurt him and now I'm paying for it.

Only one statement keeps repeating itself in my mind. "Better yet who fucking knows, I might find someone better than you. A Mother Fucking Real Gentlemen, You hear that Simon, I'll find someone else and I'll bury that one night stand so far that it will be hard to remember. You are a waste of time Simon, and believe it or not fuck you"

Sighing I don't know what else to do, I need to fix this as soon as possible. Then again after summer when he is gone from my life I know he will forget about me and our one time moment and he will move on.

For Christ sake I don't even know what university he is going to or got accepted into.

Looking at the bed side clock I saw it was almost 6:30 which means it's almost time for dinner. I got up from my bed and exited the room, I passed the boys room and down to the main hall.

From the hall you can smell the mouth watering aromas coming from the kitchen. My stomach grumbled a bit. I walked in the general direction of the kitchen.

I stopped in my tracks when I came face to face with Jaden. I licked my lips as our eyes connected for a brief second. He averted his gaze to Blair who was flinging his arms all directions as he explains something to Jaden.

I wish I was the one talking to him right now. No I wish I was the one holding him tight to me. Yeah that's what I want. I want us to have a family and children and I want to see his comical face as the kids explain stuff to him. I want to see him laugh and smile. I want him.

I know what I have to do. Without any hesitation I swallowed my pride and walked up to them.

Jaden's laugh caught my attention and all of a sudden the place got quiet.

I looked at Jaden only to see his emotionless face and Blair who just got quiet looking between both of us.

So guys, I started. I scratched the back of my neck thinking of something to say. The tension was so thick a knife can cut through it; I didn't even know where to start.

Jaden kept his eyes focused on me and fro the first time I realized that I might have just lost the most amazing best friend and even possible boyfriend, all because of my arrogance.

Hey guys, Blake cut the silence as he passed and went to the fridge.

Oi! Anyone wants water or something? Blake asked and Blair moved across to his brother.

Oi! Blake hollered, Blake Jaden and I said at the same time. I just asked if you all wanted same thing from the fridge. Geez you both are sickening he mumbled.

Shut it Blake, Blair shouted and instantly Blake was out of the air. Before Blake can exit the kitchen, his words caught us all off guard.

You know the funny thing between you both is that you both like, wait no love each other so much that one of you are too arrogant and hot headed and the next is moping like he lost his favorite toy. Gosh guys, you both are worst than women. Get your heads out your asses and fucking kiss and make up, bunch of fucking sissies.

Blake! I hope you just didn't used a swear word mister man, the loud shouting came from the living room, by which all means sounds like Leo. Blair started laughing and followed the direction his brother came from, leaving Jaden and I in the thickness of silence.

I looked over at Jaden only to see his shocked features. I swallowed hard because I know what Blake said and it's the truth. I mean yes I'm arrogant and hot headed, as for Jaden I don't know. All I know I have fallen hard for him after that one night and I have lots of making up to do.