i can't live without you (A frank iero and gerard way fan fiction *frerard*)

chapter 1

I was walking down a street at night it was dark and only one flickering street lamp was on. I heard something behind me and I quickly turned around my heart racing. A guy was standing there looking apologetic. He had longish black hair and tattoos all over his hands and all up both arms.

“Frank! I said “you scared the hell out of me. “

“Sorry” he said smiling cheekily. I loved his smile.

Then something dawned on me “what are you doing here anyway?” I looked around it was late and no one was around. “Did you follow me?” I asked a little scared now.

“No I well…. I’m sorry” he said looking down. He looked so sad and ashamed I stepped closer to him before I could even think about it.

“I need to tell something. Actually I won’t tell you I’ll just show you” he said

I sighed “what is it frank? You babbling” he only did that when he was really nervous.

“I know” he said and he stepped forward. My heart raced ta being so close to him. He kissed me passionately. I kissed him back. He pushed me into an alley way and he slid his hands up my shirt my hands found his pants he moaned in pleasure

Then I woke up.

I’ve been having these dreams for months now. I hated them. It wasn’t because I didn’t like frank. It was because I was a guy and frank was my best friend. My straight best friend.

I opened my eyes to see my girlfriend Lindsey staring at me looking worried from next to me in the bed. “Are you okay Gerard?” she asked. I smiled loving how much she cared for me. Then I felt a pang of guilt in my stomach. Okay so Lindsey knew I was bisexual. Everyone knew. But no one knew how much I liked frank. “I’m fine” I replied I guess it wasn’t a complete lie. If Lindsey knew how much I liked frank… I loved frank. I wanted him so much it hurt, it was a physical pain in my chest. But I still liked Lindsey she was perfect.

“Gerard!” Lindsey yelled waving her hand in my face.

“Huh what? Oh sorry” I said realising that Lindsey had been talking to me. I’d been to distracted thinking about frank. As always.

“I asked do you want a coffee” she said

“oh yeah thank you” I replied. She just looked at me suspiciously before walking inot the kitchen. I sighed. Could she tell that I’ve been different these last couple of months? Shit! Could frank tell?

Lindsey came back in and gave me a coffee “you are meeting the rest of the band to write some more songs” she said sounding all parental.

I laughed “I know I didn’t forget” I said leaning towards her she smiled cheekily at me “well Gerard with you, you never know” I smiled and kissed her. Then I pulled back remembering something. We all agreed that we would go to frank and Jamia’s place for the osng writing. Well all of us agreed except me I had to just go along with it. I hated going over to frank and jamia’s house. I couldn’t stand to see them together.

When I got to Jamia’s house everyone was already there. Bob, who played drums, ray who played guitar. Mikey my younger brother who played bass and frank who also played guitar.

I sat down then Jamia came in and gave us all coffee. Frank stared lovingly at her and she just smiled at him.

My stomach twisted. He loves her. Why would he ever want me I’m useless. I just looked down and drank my coffee and didn’t say anything when everyone else was thinking about more songs for our the black parade album

I looked up and saw mikey staring worriedly at me. I supressed a sigh he noticed my mood as well. Could everyone? I started to pretend to be happy and help with the song we were working on