Unconditionally In Love

Kiss and Make Up.

When I woke up, it was later in the day. I checked my phone and it was 3. I walked to the restroom and looked at my messed up hair and face. I even looked like a disappointment. I fixed my hair up in a ponytail. I went downstairs and no one was there. The car wasn't there either. I was home alone. Or so I thought. I walked to the logs and sat there. When I looked at the ocean, I saw Natsu standing at the edge of the waves with his arms crossed on his chest. I stared at him. His salmon hair blowing with the chill wind. I got up and walked over, next to him. He looked down from the corner of his eye, then back to the ocean.

"It's beautiful."

...

"I always liked coming back here. The ocean, its scent, the sun rise and set. It's so relaxing. Coming here always gave me the feeling that everything was going to be okay. Like if whenever I was here, I was relieved to get away. Everything became better, and everyone was happy. The waves were so relaxing whenever I swam. Sometimes, I would just sit down and let them hit me and then go back away. It was a nice feeling."

"I like it too. It's very beautiful."

"It really is."

"Lucy, I hate what you did. I might have said this more than a million times now, but it hurt a lot. I can't stand to think of it. And the thing is, I love you so much." He looked down at me. "I love you SO much. This is killing me. Not being able to talk to you. To kiss you. To touch you. It is killing me, Lucy." Now, we were facing each other and he held my face as he said all this.

"This lust I have for you is uncontrollable. You drive me nuts. You are all I think about. All the time. All these mixed emotions are making me go insane. You don't deserve what I'm about to do to you, but I just cant hold it in anymore."

He kissed me softly. Quickly. He pulled apart, looked me in the eyes, then kissed me again. His lips were softer. His movements gentle. Then it got harder. He kissed me harder. He pulled me against him by my waist and held me there. Taking my hand, we went upstairs, to the bedroom. He pushed me against the wall and kissed me passionately. I wrapped my legs around his waist and we made out. He carried me to the bed and got on top of me. He sucked on my neck, giving me small hickies. I called out his name, but he kept going. Our bodies were drove by the adrenalin. We had the house all to our selfs. It didn't matter if we were loud. We made love. We were happy. He was right. I so didn't deserve this, but he still gave it to me. At this point, I felt even worse. But lust isn't something anyone can control. It controls you instead. He held me in his embrace as he moved up and down. We unclothed and kept going. I was happy. He was happy.

"I love you so much, Lucy."

"I love you too, Natsu. I'm sorry."

"Shut up" he said seductively with his raspy voice.

We went even faster. We were becoming one again. He handled me like I was so fragile and I loved him for that. I was so delicate to him. He made my heart a better place. Afterwards, we took a nap in each others arms.  

I woke up first and stared at his face, once again staring at those beautiful features of his. He was so perfect. I got out of the hug and filled the bath with bubbles. I got in and relaxed. While playing with the bubbles, Natsu came in. He stared straight into my eyes and smiled. He, too, got in behind me. We lay together and played with the bubbles. Back in the kitchen, everyone was sitting down, eating and laughing. Levy ran towards me and hugged me. Realizing my hair was wet and so was Natsu's, she looked me in the eyes and smiled. I felt tears coming, so I blinked them away. We all sat and ate. After that, Natsu and I went outside to the logs and sat there. I rested my head on his shoulder and we looked at the fire.

"Today was nice."

"It really was. I had a good time. But I feel worse."

"Dont be."

"I cant not be. I dont deserve you treating me this way. I dont deserve you. I dont deserve making love with you. It's just unfair. It's like you're rewarding me for what I did to you."

"Lucy, that doesn't matter anymore. Today, we had some fun. Lots of fun. I forgive you. I forgave you in bed. Im happy. We are happy. So let me love you okay? You deserve it."

I leaned into him and kissed him. His lips were soft, like they always are. He grabbed my face and we made out by the campfire. He was so...forgiving. I knew I didnt deserve it, but he thought I did. He made me feel so...alive. My eyes began to water, and this time, blinking couldnt hold them back. I started to cry with my face buried into Natsu's chest. He looked down at me and I felt his puzzled look.

"I just dont deserve this Natsu. I am the worst person in the world and you treat me like everythings okay. Well its not. I feel horrible because youre so nice and caring and I hate that and I love you too but I just...urgh, I just don't deserve this at all. I am so sor-ahhh! Natsu what are you doing?!"

Before I could finish my sentence, Natsu had picked me up and carried me to the our room. He dropped me on the bed and looked at me seductively. He started to unbuckle his belt and said,

"Lucy, we are going to do this all night long if we have to, until you can forgive your self."

He got on top of me and made out with me. He took off my clothes and undressed himself. We did it again. I enjoyed the moments. All of them. He inserted his tongue in my mouth and we made out. After ripping all my clothes off, he went in me. Whenever we started, he made the regret and pain go away. Then it all came back when we stopped, so we went again. I think we ended up doing it 3 times. After the third, my legs were killing me and I couldnt take more.

"Natsu, my legs hurt like hell."

"I told you I was gonna punish you if you didnt forgive your self."

"Thank you, Natsu."

"Anything for my princess."

He planted a kiss on my lips and we slept. I was glad things were back to normal.