What The Hell Is Going On? (Book 2) (Mortal Instruments)

Dream 4

You smile at the white blonde haired boy and his raven haired twin sister with sad eyes as they sleep. He reminds you so much of his father in looks and she has his eyes. Both of them a constant reminder of what you don't have anymore. A hand squeezes your shoulder and you give Alec a small smile. You both leave the room and go to the sitting room where you stand in front of the large windows.

"What happened earlier today?"

"Sebastian and Jessamine asked why the others shun me, but not them. I was surprised so I didn't answer, but they're bound to find out who their father is and what he did. What we did together all those years ago."

"You should just tell them. They'll understand like Izzy, Clary, and I do. Magnus wants to come for a visit when you have the chance."

"That'll be good for them. Tell him he can come tomorrow if he wants."

Alec nods and leaves you with a smile on his face. You manage a small smile until you close the door. Once the door closes the smile fades from your face and tears prick your eyes. You put a hand to your chest before taking a deep breath and turning off the lights in the manor before going to your room. You stay up for a bit before turning off the light and going to sleep.

You wake up the next morning to hear feet running towards your room. You sit up as your door is thrown open and you see a flash of white blonde hair in the dark. You get out of bed as he makes it to your bedside and ruffle his hair. He gives you a bright smile as his sister trails behind him still slightly asleep. You go to the kitchen and they follow you eagerly. You smile before making them breakfast and hear a knock at the door. It doesn't sound familiar so you leave them there and whisper an angel name as the blade lights up. You throw open the door and sheathe your blade at who you see.

"Clary you can't scare me like that."

"Sorry I decided to drop by for a visit."

You nod and go back to your children as she closes the front door. Clary hasn't seen them since they were born because Jace didn't want you around Clary. You gulp in nervousness at what Clary is going to think when she sees them. Sebastian grabs your hand in his small one and gives you a bright smile that you can't help but smile back at. Clary sees your smile and smiles until her eyes land on him. She pales slightly until she gathers herself as Jessamine comes out of hiding.

"Momma who is this?"

"Sebastian and Jessamine this is your aunt Clary. Clary this is Sebastian and Jessamine."

"They look like him especially Sebastian."

"Momma is she your sister?"

"No she is daddy's sister. She's a good friend of mine though."

"Okay. Hey momma when will you tell us about daddy?"

"Eventually when you're old enough."

They nod and run off to play as you watch with a small smile. Clary looks shocked and pale once again. You know why, but you won't approach the subject. She shakes her head in disbelief before speaking.

"You haven't told them about him yet?"

"No I want them to remain ignorant for a little while longer. They deserve that at least."

"No they don't. What happens if because they don't know that they turn out like him." She says sneering the word him.

"Get out Clary I won't allow you to speak like that about him in my house. We thought you understood, but it's obvious you don't."

She walks out and you slam the door behind her trying not to cry. You can't let the kids see you cry because it makes them sad. You sit there wishing for the one thing you can't have. You wish for him to be at your side once again, but you know it is impossible.

Edited: January 14, 2018