bellamy blake imagines

Every Night

by ravewood on tumblr

Every night the dream hunt you. They where dreams, more like memories of what happened in the sinister mountain. The second your close your eyes, memories flicker through your mind.

It made you sick to your stomach with just that thought of that place. It made your skin crawl and cold sweat would coat you. You tried so hard to forget but how could you?

Every night since they rescued us you couldn't sleep. You were a walking zombie by now. You tried to act like nothing was wrong, like everything was okay but it wasn't.

"(Y/n)?" A voice called making you jump straight up from your cot. Your eyes wide as you see Bellamy walk in your room with wide worried eyes.

"Wanna go for a walk?" He asked as his warm smile stretched out.

"Yeah." You whispered as you quickly slipped into your boots before following him.

The night almost seemed peaceful. The sky displaying all the stars with the moon full. The wind soft blew in a soft manner as we walked.

Your body froze when You saw a figure moving. They were dressed in the air sealed suits that the mountain man would wear.

"(Y/n)?" Bellamy asked as he saw you stop.  Your muscles tensed as your breath stopped. They were back.

"What wrong?" Bellamy asked but just like that you bolted. Your weren't in control of your body. But all you wanted was to get out. Bellamy quickly went after your but so did the sealed suit man.

But there was nowhere to run. The electric fence stood tall locking you from your escape.

"Y/n) please." Bellamy begged as he slowly came up to you.

"The mountain man." You mumbled as your eye focused on the figure behind Bellamy.

"It's just Abby." Bellamy said as the suited figure took off the helmet. Your breathing was still harsh almost impossible.

"What's wrong with her?" Bellamy asked as he looked at Abby. He has been your best friend since the Ark. He had never seen you like this. So scared with this wild fear in your eyes. He hated seeing you like this.

"My guess, ptsd from the mountain." Abby said as she looked at your shaking form.

"Well how do we stop it?" Bellamy asked.

"You can't, just let her ride it out." Abby said before leaving the two teenagers.

Bellamy walked over to you. Your eyes following his every move. And just like that he pulled you up in his arms. Your arms latched around his neck as your legs pulled around his torso. One of his stone arms went around your waist as the other under your bum to hold you up.

Your face was buried in his neck, hot tears soaking his shirt. He brought you back to his room, setting you down in the bed. You sat with your legs hanging off the bed as he stayed on his knees between your legs.

"Please stop crying. It kills me to see you like this." Bellamy whispered as he took your hands in his.

"Tell me what happened." He asked hoping you would finally tell him what happened in the mountain. Ever since he found you, locked away in a cage, he had been begging you to tell him what they did.

"I just want to help." He whispered against your hands. His lips soft brushing the skin as he placed long sweet scattered kisses along your hands, your fingers, your knuckles to your wrist.

"I wouldn't stop asking question when Clarke disappeared. I found the room where they kept the grounders but Cage??? Found me there. He took me so they can take my blood. I was his personal blog bag until they found out about the bone marrow. They took it from my hip. Twice until they took Harper??? " you said in a broken tone. Bellamy frowned as for up to sit next to you. You just needed to be close to him. Bellamy pulled you on his lap as he leaned against the wall that cornered his bed. You straddled him as his head rested against his chest. His arms went around you as his fingers danced patterns on your back.

"He locked me away. He let them run tests in my blood and me. He wanted to know what else we could withstand." You whispered as you let out what you've been trying to keep inside. You haven't told anyone about the experiments they ran on you.

"I should have gotten to you sooner."  Bellamy whispered against the top of your head. He felt guilty. He blamed himself he couldn't get you out of there sooner. He blamed himself for letting you get caught after the battle with the grounders. He should have never let you out of his sight.

"It's not your fault Bell." You whispered as you sat back to look at him. Being with him made you feel safe. A feeling so rare in earth.

"It's my fault. I shouldn't have left your side during the battle with the grounders." He said as his eyes looked like glass.

"No, then they would have gotten us both," you whispered as you pushed back his dark hair.

"It should have been me instead of you." Bellamy said. All he ever wanted to do was to protect you and he failed you.

"No because you saved us all. Without you I would have been dead or worse, still stuck in the lab." You whispered as you tried your best to smile.

"I'm never letting you go. I'm going to keep you safe from everything and anything." He told you as his dark eyes searched yours.

"You can't always protect me." You said rolling your eyes at the stubborn man in front of you.

"Oh but I can, and I will. I have to. You mean everything to me (y/n) and I will not lose you. I almost lost you and it was like my whole world crumbled without you." Bellamy said as his eyes stayed locked with yours. This was it for him. This is all he ever wanted... You.

"What?" You asked unsure of the words coming out of your best friend.

"I love you." He said as he let his feelings out.

"I love you too Bell." You said but he knew you still weren't grasping the full meaning of his words.

"No (y/n), I'm in love with you." He said as his large hand held the side of your face.

"What?" You whispered as you looked at him. You never knew of his feeling towards you.

"I loved you long before I even knew what real love was. You keep me sane, alive." He whispered only hoping you'll say something in return. Bellamy was never one to wear his heart in his sleeve.

"I love you Bellamy." You said as a large smile grew on your lips. You always have but you never thought he felt the same.

Before he could question you, you connected your lips together. It was like all the fear and anxiety you ever felt before just vanished. Nothing else mattered but the two of you, here together.