Will to shatter

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A day of fasting 

For my own type of faith

Shrinking frustratingly slowly 

Don't you worry 

The hunger means it's working 

It's good for you 

But stripping away layers of cotton and polyester 

It leaves me with this

No more layers to peel back 

Except my own skin

The skin thats too pale 

It's uneven 

Cracked 

Dirty 

I'm a tiger without it's stripes 

The bones of my hips should emerge like rain in the fall

They hide away 

Almond eyes that are too small 

Thigh or sky?

The same size 

With matching  hues when veins get too close to the surface 

My eyelashes are spider legs and my cheeks are moon crevices 

This isn't right 

It can't be

This isn't right 

There's too much curve 

Too much 

Too much 

Too much 

But yet not enough 

Too big and Too small 

I'll take a knife as dull as my eyes 

Sharpen it on the pages of a magazine 

Take it to the mirror 

Grind it up and sand down my harsh edges 

Be smooth

Take it to my skin 

Ribbons and ribbons 

Crimson crescents 

Straight and perfect 

A perfect blemish 

 Lines and lines and lines 

Stinging showers to wash away the instant regrets 

But at least the little tiger has her stripes 

Yet they remain unseen

Cloaked behind layers of snow that hide wintery hills

Nothing is to be seen 

Even though the clothes make it too warm 

Though others too close to oneself prance exposed 

Showing off the things you envy 

You're faith is failing you 

Flat and taught 

Without a single thought of your precious fragility 

They take it for granted

Life with an identity 

With a freedom to show without repercussions

Bikinis and crop tops while you sit in a corner 

Try to keep your nose in a book

Ignore the sense of panic 

Fast harder 

You're faith is failing you 

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