Levi X Reader | One-Shots & Mini-Series | Heavy Editing

Mistakes Were Made

*OOC Levi PLAY MUSIC*

An idiot was what you were. Why in the hell did you think you would ever get away with such a sin?

You hurt your dearly beloved and now you were facing the truth.

You had been cheated on before and it had put you through immense pain and yet, hypocritically you had cheated on your new boyfriend.

You didn't look for satisfaction in him, you looked for it through your manager-- well someone who was helping you with your music career. Turned out that the man was a scam artist and had been playing you all along. You pathetically thought that he would work even harder if he thought he was getting you out of it.

Now, you sat on the edge of your bed while your boyfriend "slept." You knew he was awake. He had found out just a few days ago about your affair and hadn't spoken a word to you since with the exception of 'you can stay in the house while I gather my thoughts.' You kept your sobs to a very low sound. You had learned to do that since the beginning of your sinful act because the guilt would eat away at your being everyday.

Your cheating had caused you more health related issues than Levi. You started biting your nails to the point where they'd bleed, you would constantly feel anxious and sick to the point where you went a full day without eating and barely stomaching water and the final thing was the stress of everything would cause you to have the flu or cold every two to three weeks despite it being mid-July. You had pushed yourself into a deep depression. You were weak and now that he found out, it caused your pain and its repercussions to heighten by a tenfold. Over the space of these three days, all you could manage to eat a day was a slice of toast with a scrape of butter on it accompanied with some black tea.

Levi, who quickly turned his head and glanced at your shoulders bouncing up while skilfully keeping quiet, noticed how skinny you looked. It alarmed him, if he was going to be honest. You were a strong intelligent woman. That's what annoyed him, you were intelligent. So why? Why did you think something so idiotic would work? The amount of times over the past few days he had been a hair trigger close to walking away from his life with you was uncountable. But something stopped him, and he didn't know what it was. Maybe it was that he only saw you eat and drink once a day, maybe it was the fact that he knew that you'd cry to yourself every time he left the house to go the shop because you would fear he'd never return, hell maybe it was because he was having trouble believing that you were unfaithful to him. That you, his sweet angel, had done something so sinister.

You wanted so desperately to escape the pain you were in, but you deserved what you got. Every action has a reaction. That's the way the world works. You rubbed your eyes with your palms and moved them to your temples and massaged as you tried to rid yourself of the migraine you had. You were sick. You needed rest yet, every time you closed your eyes memories of your lover's face, in past happy times, haunted your sleep. The voices within your head that growled at you for your sins were plaguing your thoughts.

'Monster, slut, whore, pig, bitch, cheater.'

"I'm sorry. I'm so so sorry I failed you," You whispered quietly to the air, hoping Levi heard but at the same time, hoping he didn't. Hoping he didn't hear how much pain you were in because you didn't want him to have to hear all that when it was him that should be allowed to cry.

You lifted yourself from the edge of the bed, and walked out of the room into the living room. You looked around the room as the tears completely blurred your vision again. You had destroyed everything you touched. You were always so selfish and this time, you were paying the price for having such a trait.