Binta

Chapter Thirteen

DEDICATED TO MEENAHSHUAIB

I was dying to tell her how I truly felt and if the circumstances had been different I would have happily done so. I wanted her more than I had ever wanted anything else in my life. But there were so many barriers on our part. I really wish she was not my employee, I wished the first day she set her foot in my office I turned her away. Damn it! She is just like poison slowly moving through my system breaking down all my defense metabolism.

"You love her don't you?" my dad said straight out not giving me the liberty to argue or deny. "It's very obvious the way you act so weird around her" he added.

"Dad I just don't know...it's just not right" I said in a soft voice.

"Yes it's not right... she is your employee and it's against the company work ethics for co-workers to have an affair..."

"Chapter 7 section 2" I cut in because I know my dad he would read and quote the chapters and if possible a case scenario for you.

"Dad there is always an exception to every general rule" I drew his attention to that fact and he laughed.

"Son! She is very intelligent and career driven, please don't do anything to distract her" my dad warned.

"You talking like I'm a distraction...for heaven's sake dad I mean good with her" I retorted.

"Yea you are distraction son I need her to focus" and I released an angry laugh.

"You just self-centered dad" with that I hung the phone.

Honestly my dad can be so annoying most of the time, moment like this I really miss my mom. Yes! I know it's wrong to date my employee according to man's law but according to GOD's law I don't see a chapter or section preaching its illegality. So the word of God shall prevail against that of man.

I laid down on the couch in my sitting room, thinking about the moment we shared with Binta on our way to the dinner and back. I loved the fact she was seated next to me in my range rover sports car. I like my car and with Binta in it I loved it beyond words, she made it more beautiful. Now thinking about the revelation I shared with her, well I didn't regret it one bit but I 'm only afraid she might have a bad impression about it. I knew somewhere deep inside Binta there was something for me, no matter how much we both tried to deny it. Sometimes the feeling is just both confusing and exhilarating at the same time and in moments like that I would forget she is my employee.

Sometimes I wish she would stop being so vague and just talk to me. Would that time ever come? Would there ever be a time that she would open up to me and let me see her for who she really was? Or would I have to always be on the other side constantly trying to figure her out.

I could go 24/7 mesmerizing about Binta and I would never get tired. She was on my mind every single second every single day and it was really getting to me, because I knew it wasn't the same with Binta.

I glanced at the clock and saw it was now 1am and I decided that I should stop thinking myself to death and get some sleep.

So I closed my eyes, allowing sleep to take over me as I drifted off with lingering thoughts of Binta.

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I woke up feeling weird, and I knew it could be for multiple of reason. As I stared at my ceiling fan I remembered everything that had happened on Friday till Saturday evening. My boss had revealed an intense part of him and had indirectly revealed his feeling toward me. The worst scenario was that he had asked me to address him by his name.

I sat up in my bed, feeling the sleep fall off me as I glanced at the clock. I needed to hurry if I didn't want to be late for work.

I lifted myself gracefully to the bathroom and hoped into the shower and washed, quickly eager to get to work. I love my job. Wait! was it actually my job I love or my boss*winked*. Damn it! The feeling is just so confusing.