Binta

Chapter Fifteen

DEDICATED TO SHIMMERROCKY....my ride or die paddy.

Who is he? What does he look like? What is his faith? Is he died or alive? Who is my so called biological father? Where do I find him? Why am I interested in finding him? How was my mother raped? Does she by chance have a clue of who he was? Would she ever speak to me about the incidence? When would she open up to me, so many unanswerable questions keeps ramming in my head, I needed to know everything that can lead me to my biological father, I wanted justice so bad for myself and my mom and perhaps to many he might have victimized and I just had one question for my so called dad.

The call of Magrib prayers pulled me out of my reverie , I stood up sluggishly from my bed with a heavy heart and went to perform ablution to say my prayers, I took longer time in my sujud (prostration) praying and crying my heart to God.

After I did my salaam from Magrib prayer, I remained on my mat and performed some Dhikr(remembrance of Allah) until the call of I'sha prayers. After completion of my prayers I just didn't want to move away from my prayer mat because in that position I find inner peace and consolation has I speak to my Lord in silence.

"lord....many things have been happening so fast in my life that I need your grace to accept my fate and understand them....glory be to who dispels off the sorrow of the aggrieved, O Allah the reliever of anxiety relieve me of my anxiety and grant my need.....O Allah assist me...." I prayed silently till sleep slowly stole me away.

My phone rang waking me up from my short sweet sleep, without looking at who the caller was I accepted the call and placed it on my ear and forced myself to speak but the voice at the receiving end made me wish I checked before picking up the call.

"Did I wake you up?" he sounded apologetic

"hummm....I didn't know when I slept off" I said slowly bracing myself up from my prayer mat. I spotted the time on the wall clock it was just 8.45pm.

"I just thought I should check you up to be sure you home safely" he said calmly

"Thank you sir...I mean..." he cut me off and I was glad he did because it's just so hard to call him by his name.

"It's alright don't beat yourself up about it" he said.

"I'm so sorry if I made you uncomfortable in anyway by letting the cat out of the bag, I'm ready to give you enough time to come around my sudden confession but I hope you would understand with me" he said through the silence

"Sometimes some things are just beyond our control" he added.

"Go back to sleep, goodnight Binta ...my love" he said slowly and hung the phone without giving me a chance to speak but I was glad he didn't.......

Oh nooooo!!! Such a short chapter after the long wait...Com'on writer what were you thinking...#lol.

Don't be sad...this is just a warm up for the next chapter

I hope you are ready......it's gonna be......just fasten your seat belts!!!

Love ya'all!!!

Chapter fifteen cont...

.....My boss confessed to being in love with me which actually didn't really surprise me but I never expected him to give in to his attraction and lust toward me, it's just not proper.. Subhanalilah....what am I saying? Why am I acting like he is the only sinner here the only different between us is that he was brave enough to confront me with his feelings. I wished he had waited until I was ready not just dropping it on me abruptly without notice. The way he said it was so simple and plain which kept echoing in my brain I was dumbfounded and sort of embarrassed that I dropped the file I was holding to the ground. He helped me picked them up as I watched him motionless.