Im wasted.
Yes, i am. Ive been throwing tantrum to everyone since yesterday. I feel bad honestly, but i am bad. Because i am wasted. All my life, ive been surviving from many kind of heart break, but never this much. What i experience now is beyond my limit. All i can feel is pain. And maybe being wasted is better to cope with the pain.
Im sorry for everyone who knows me. I changed. Im not a girl, or a babygirl you guys used to know. I changed my life, i changed everything. Because its better for me. I would go back become a playgirl again. Playing all your hearts like its a toy for me. Because thats how people treat me, like im a toy.
Im done being toy. Now im going to be the one who plays your heart. A badass girl that doesnt scared of anything anymore. I know myself better now.
You told me i have to be able to defend myself and stay strong, i am doing your favor. Staying strong. But i have to crush people as well, because i wouldnt win this game if i dont crush people. So im sorry. No, i dont have to be sorry, because honestly this suits my personality better.
Im done being a good girl, i like being a bad girl.
I HAVENT SLEEP AND I FEEL REALLY NUMB MY BODY HURTS MY EYES ARE HEAVY IM SO DONE WITH MY LIFE IM SUCH A FUCK UP.
