Here goes nothing, again.
Ever since we broke things ive been hurting myself real bad. I cut, i skip meal, i even forgot when was the last time i eat actual meal. Yesterday i only ate noodles, because you said so. And i havent eaten anything after it.
I know i have problem with my stomach, but i dont care. Its not important, im not important. Ive been laying in bed everytime i get a chance. Mom told me to eat, i told her im full. Because honestly i feel full even if i havent eaten. Im full because of sadness, thats my meal now.
I know you would never read this, and honestly i dont care. I hope you would never find out what ive been doing after you broke things with me. Its better this way because i want you to move on. I want you to forget about me, all the things we had, because it would hurt you. But just know that i would never forget you. Because youre the light in my shitty life.
Please dont worry about me, i know ive been hurting myself like this but this isnt your fault. I just feel like dying is better, because this is killing me. So i have nothing to lose. I dont have you anymore so if i die then it would be better.
Ive been taking meds since my stomach getting bad again, i know you would be very angry if you know that ive been skipping meal but please dont, because i want this. I want to feel something, anything.
Please love me again, i cant stop thinking about you. Ive been writing everything here, hoping that you somehow would read thia, my true feelings. Just know that i will always love you this way, friend.
Ive been laying in bed since yesterday because im sick ugh suck.
