Yeah, it does exist.
And you show me that eveyone deserve their one true love. Even if you didnt want to look at me in the eye, i can tell that youre hurting too. That your decision hurts you as well, and now i finally see how it breaks you into pieces. You refused to look at me, you were busy doodling while talking. I know you were avoiding me, but the real reason i called you was to make sure that youre alive, that youre somehow still okay. But what i saw earlier breaks my heart as well. The love of my life hurting because of me.
Your feelings matter for me, because i will always love you. It might sound cliche but youre the love of my life. And i hate seeing you like that.
You said that things would never be like it used to and i know that. But i wish it could. At least we still can jokes around. At least i still have you in my life. Because i know how much im trying to move on from you i couldnt because youre the best thing thats ever happened in my life.
You said youre busy for the next few weeks, and im not complaining. But i wish somehow you can cheer up and be happy, i really want you to smile again. And im still hoping that i could be the one that cheer you up, because you still can cheer me up.
Thanks for tutoring me earlier, and talked, a bit. Those 40 minutes make me happy more than anything this week. I know you were upset, but at least i still can saw your face. God youre even more beautiful everyday, especially with your glasses.
Theres just one thing i hope you still have time for it. I hope you still would say happy birthday to me, and maybe somehow give me something. I know were just friends now, but i just hope that somehow you would still give me something as my birthday present. I know im asking too muh, but i just hope that your feelings for me still the same. That might change into something more platonic like you said, but i hope it wouldnt change anytime soon, because im not ready to let you go completely.
Dont forget about us, because i love you.
