I used to have one best friend.
The one i fell in love with. The one who gave me the first heart break. The one that made me sacrifice everything for her.
Fight.
Thats what happened between us. No, its still happening. I hate her boyfriend, he is a jerk and likes to talk about my gay side with his gang. I never approve. I know im just her friend, but i want whats the best for her.
September, 1st 2015
Im with him. She said to me. And i broke into pieces. I tried to be okay, but honestlyi couldnt. I tried to move on from her, but it was hard, especially because were really close. She was my everything.
December, 2015
I finally let her go. She wasnt made for me, so i just let her go. Like a wind i let her go. I rarely talk to her ever since, because its scary, what if i fall for her one more time? But then i learned that im really over her, like literally over.
And faith was on my side. I met someone new, that gave me butterflies, that made me dare to dream, dare to chase it. Made me realize that im good enough, she is my everything.
But the thing is, theres no way we could be together, so she decided to break things with me, even if i dont want to. And i honestly couldnt do it. Because she isnt mine anymore.
Mom would ask, wheres your friend? You rarely talk to her. And i honestly dont know what to say if mom ask about her again. Because i feel like crying inside.
If she just wants us to be friend, then be it. But i couldnt do it. I love her too much, harder than what i felt two years ago. And being just friend, i dont know.
Maybe i should let this one go as well.
Goodbye,
See you later,
I love you,
Forever and always.
