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                                                                       Chapter 9

I waited for the water, but all I felt was a hand on my leg.  I opened my eyes and saw that I was hanging upside down, with Chase holding onto my leg.

“Let me go!” I yelled at him, feeling the ache in my heart of just thinking about living without him.

He gave me a smile, “Now why would I do that?”

“B-because, you don’t love me, no one does,” I said the tears falling from my eyes.

“Zoey, why would you think that?” He asked.

“Because, I-I just know it.”

“Zoey, please don’t do this ever again,” He said as he pulled me up.

Was I really being that stupid? I sat down pulling my knees to my chest and hanging my head between them.

What was I doing? Did I really think that killing myself would solve anything.  I mean, when the game gets tough you don’t just quit right?  You try harder; that’s exactly what I needed to do, I needed to stay strong and try harder.

“I-I’m sorry,” I sobbed.  I felt a pair of arms circle around me, and I leaned into it.  I could tell it was Chase by his scent and how his touch sent sparks through me.

“I-I Just want to go h-home,” I said suddenly becoming homesick.

“Shhh, you’ll be home soon,” He said picking me up bridal style.  I looked up slightly watching as he started to hand me over to Jason.

“No!” I yelled gripping onto Chase’s arm.  I couldn’t stand to even look at them.  I was still extremely mad at Jason for ignoring me after I get out of the hospital and for Jeremy defending his slut of a mate, who turned on me.

I looked up as Chase carried me home.  He looked down at me and gave me a sad smile.  And that sad smile made me want to hit him, I didn’t need pity.  Especially from my mate.

I jumped down from his arms wobbling as my feet hit the ground, and started running home.

I didn’t need pity from anyone, and I am sure I would be getting that a lot.  I ran into the house and watched as everyone got up from the table, staring at me.  I took one look at their faces and ran upstairs.  Pity.  That’s all I saw in their eyes, Pity.  I ran to my room and locked the door, jumping on my bed, I let the sobs come out.  How did I think that would solve anything.

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The next week was going to be crap. I had been scheduled a counseling since my incident was counted as ‘Attempt to Suicide’.  I had to go for the next month, but still had to return to school as if nothing happened.  Oh Joy.  Note the sarcasm.  I lied down on my bed and stared at the ceiling.  Why had I done that?  Why had I even thought it was an option?  See where it got me?  Nowhere. 

I needed to get my mind off of everything.  I changed out of the pajamas I had been lounging in for a couple days and put on some regular clothes.  I threw on a pair of my favorite skinny jeans, a long blue shirt and some comfy grey ankle boots.  I grabbed my purse and opened the window.  I left a note and unlocked my door before hopping off the roof and running.  It only took me thirty minutes but I finally got to the mall. Yes, the mall.  I looked around, where to start.  I started walking into Rue21, when I spotted Carly and the cheerleaders.  I quickly turned and walked a different direction before they could see me.  How could she do that to me, this was our favorite store. 

I guess I would have to face her sooner or later, so I turned back around and started to look at clothes inside the store trying to ignore the glares.  I picked out a couple shirts, skirts and accessories and went to the changing room.  I could hear them whispering as I tried on clothes, but I just ignored them.

After I finished trying I bought three shirts, a skirt, and a cute dress. The shirts were similar, one white with a brown belt, one red-purple with a black bow, and the last a light pink with a brown belt.  The skirt was black with sparkles.  The dress was black on the top with simple straps, buttons down the middle of the chest and had tiers of white with black polka dots.  I was just about to check out when I saw the cutest grey ankle boots.  They had a buckle and were wedges; I quickly grabbed my size and walked to the check out.

The bill costed a lot but I could pay for it, I mean I did have to support myself when I was at boarding school.  I handed the money over to the checkout lady, who seemed to be shocked I didn’t use a credit card.  She quickly finished and I turned around to walk out.

I was stopped right outside the door by none other than Carly.  She grabbed my arm as I started walking past her.

“What do you want?” I asked my voice ice cold.

“I came to say, I-I’m sorry,” She said looking down.

“For what?” I asked.

“For being a bitch.”

“Carly I forgive you, but I want to know why, what did I ever do to you?” I asked holding back the tears.

She shifted her weight on her feet a few times before saying, “I was hurt, and jealous, you and Chase were always hanging out, I watched how much fun you have, I just wanted Jeremy and I to be like that, I mean sure we hang out every day, but it’s never alone, and when I heard you tried to kill yourself I blamed myself, because I have been a bitch to you for no reason.”  She was full on sobbing now; I wrapped my arms around her rubbing her back and glaring at the people looking at us weirdly.

“Come on,” I whispered.

I leaded her behind me and started walking home.

Once at home she was calmer, only a few tears leaked from her eyes.  I jumped up and grabbed the edge of the roof pulling myself up.  I turned around and helped her up before opening my window, jumping in.  I locked the window once she got in and turned to her.

“I think that Girl’s night is long overdue,” I said.

She looked up at me, “Really, after I was a bitch to you?”

I nodded, “I forgave you remember.”

She started to smile and jumped up hugging me.

I walked over to my stereo and turned it on.  I instantly started dancing to ‘Bam by Miranda Cosgrove’.  I looked over at Carly as she started dancing and smiled.  I had my best friend back. 

I mean it is three strikes and you’re out.  Maybe I needed to give Jason and Jeremy another chance.  But for now, I am gonna love having my best friend.

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Ok so, when I was writing this I was in a crappy mood and changed my moods throughout writing it, so it may sound depressed, happy, sad and everything in between.  Don't think I would do this to myself, because I love my life! Ok, well remember to vote, comment, and fan. Thanks for reading! :D

-Megan <3