Book Of Thoughts

Ashley

So this is to one of my best best friends, bloodywrists_ 

 Ashley, I love you. I fucking love you. You're like the sister I never had. Sure you're a bitch sometimes but we all are. You're funny, sweet, cute, nice, and a royal bitch but you're MY bitch and my sister so I deal with it. We will always be best friends like sure we have our fights but we get over them because we were meant to be friends and you know it. We have been friends for over a year now and I don't want you to ever feel like I don't care. I care so much about you, I'm just bad at showing my emotions and you know that. I love you so so much and I act like I'm happy where I am but tbh I'm not everyday I miss you and I wish that I was in your house sleeping in your room and waking up to your gorgeous smile. And I'm wishing that I could run down those stairs with you and give your mom a hug and kiss and run to school for another day of fucking up our life 'cause that's what we do, isn't it?

 And everyday I go to school and look at a empty seat beside me and think 'I wish Ashley was there' and I walk home and look beside me and think 'I wish we were downtown right now together instead' and when you talk about going over to Janellys or when you say you're hanging out with someone I always think 'I wish that were me not them.'

 Because I love you Ashley. God, you consume my every fucking thought. You're my best friend and when I'm alone at night all I think about is how I'm ever gonna get to live with you.

 It's tough, I know. But I'm gonna make it through and you will too. And someday? We'll be together again going through life and messing around together. We'll go on McDates and we'll kick Trevor and Matthew's ass and we'll be just like we were back then.

 So, do you get it now?

 I love you. You're my sister so I love you because you are so so sweet and funny and yes you can be rude but that's who you are and I love you for it.

 And I can't wait to see you again.

Love,

Your bff <3