Dear Jen.

Happy Craddy Craddy Day

Dear Jen,

        Day 5 that I've been able to talk. How ya been? Bored? Well at least you aren't in pain. I'm not sure I want to write down what happened today. I can tell you I'm dreadfully tired again. Like that time in 8th grade. Okay! Fine, I'll tell you. Only because I know it will stay between us. Today started  off with house cleaning as always, but at breakfast I remind my Aunt that I have to be at work by 3. She obviously ignored me. So a few hours later I reminded her again. Ignored. About half an hour later I remind Auntie again and again I'm IGNORED. About an hour before my shift starts, my "cousin" tells Auntie that I have to be  at work at 3. She goes OFF, and tells me that I should have told her sooner and that her plans on cleaning house are ruined. On the way to work she starts to complain and practically screams (without raising her voice)  that they need to stop schedualing me every holiday and when someone doesn't want to work. Any way I'm stuck in the car trying to let it just bounce off of me, before I got to work because I have to deal with peple at work. I mean doesn't everyone want a smile with the service they are given? 

        Anyway THAT episode with my aunt screwed with my ability to do my job. I despise negativity and whenever I get a certain dose of it. I can't think straight. Especially if I want to look up and be proud of  that person who gives me the dose of negativity. I ended up messing up multiple receipts  and orders at work. My coworkers couldn't WAIT to get me out of there. I don't blame them I was ruining everything.

      After work I walked to my aunt's office to get out of my uniform and the front door is locked and my "cousin" couldn't hear me, he was playing Call of Duty online again. So I had to walk around to come in the back door. Thank Goodness THAT wasn't locked. When I walked in and past his "room" he looked up as to say "Oh, you're back." and then informed me that Auntie wanted me to eat. I was SO not wanting spaghetti but I had no choice. So putting an extremely small portion on my plate I grabbed two slices of bread, and blasted my music to get rid of all coherent thought. Which seemed like a good idea. Until Auntie and her friend came back. The Yelling started again. I hurridly did as she asked and when it was over I asked to go to the store about a quarter mile from the office. She grudgingly let me, but... I have that feeling this is one of those things that shall come back to bite me if I'm not careful. Anywa I went home to do the list sent from my Aunt and  got a shower. I decided that I'm just going to have to tough it through until I can come up with the money to leave on peaceful terms of course. I don't want any animitity against  either her or me. Night Jen. I'll see if I can talk later. Maybe my dreams won't be weird tonight... Yeah most likely not.

                                        Shadow Raven

                                                     concluded: 10:56 pm January 16th 2001

            Turning off the light beside her bed Shade lay down and drifted to sleep.