Smile

• Chapter 22 •

Nuria POV

I am awakened by Mesut's kisses. Slowly I opened my eyes, smiling.

- Hello beauty, he whispers.
- Hello.

I seal my lips to his before letting my head fall on his shoulder. He gently stroked my hair.

- How are you ?
- Perfectly well .
- Better than yesterday ?
- I was fine yesterday.
- You sure?
- Yes. Why ?
- Dunno. You were... weird.
- No. I was fine.

Of course I was weird. I was scared. Afraid to spend the night with him. Fortunately , it went well. He didn't attempt anything. I'm not sure to be ready. Even though I love him.

My answer seems to satisfy him, and he doesn't insist. He kisses me again. It feels so good. I wish it never stops. And it seems that he doesn't want it either. We kiss again and again, stopping only to catch our breath. Slowly , he get on top of me. He put his hands on my back under my jersey. He moves his kisses to my neck, but I pushed him away gently.

- Mesut... we... training.

He looks at me a little disappointed.

- We don't have to go. Today is a free day. I go to training  only if I want. We can spend all day together.
- I know. But yesterday you said you would. And I have to go. It's not a free day for me.

Mesut POV

I sigh. She's right. She have to go. I roll in bed to let her get up.

- Make yourself at home, I say, pointing to the door of the bathroom. Towels are in the closet at the top left.
- Thank you.

She closes the door behind her, and a few minutes later I heard the shower. She rejected me. I was starting to think I was wrong about last night, and she rejected me. I thought everything was fine between us. But there is something wrong. But what? Finding no explanation, I get up and prepare breakfast. When she joins me in the kitchen, I serve her a glass of orange juice and toasts. While she eats, I prepare, and an hour later we leave for Valdebebas. I kiss her one last time before we separated, she going on the training grounds, I going to the locker room. There is hardly anyone. Only Iker, Sergio, Cristiano and Marcelo are there. I greet everyone, I get change, and we join together the training grounds. While we warm up Sergio approached me.

- How are you?
- Good. And you?
- You 're sure, he ask without answering my question.
- Yes, I'm fine. Why should I not?
- I don't know. Nuria perhaps?

He looks at her, as she photographs Iker.

- You look worried. It is because of her?

I hesitate to explain the situation. Maybe he can help me so I told him.

- She does not want me.

He looks at me with wide eyes .

- What do you mean?
- Yesterday , I asked her to come home with me, but it seems that she didn't really want to. She agreed to come because she had no excuse. And this morning, I was kissing her, and when I wanted to go further, she pushed me away. I don't know what happens. I thought everything was going well, but she acts as if she was afraid of me. I don't know what to do.

He thought for a moment, then said in an embarrassed air :

- Maybe... she... doesn't really love you. I mean... Maybe she thought she was in love with you but she realized she was wrong. And she does not dare to tell you.

I stop running.

- But maybe I'm wrong, he added quickly, seeing my frightened look.

- Or maybe you're right, I told to myself.