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Chapter: 4 ( Falling Apart )
Fear, sadism, anxiety...!!
Psychologist are saying fear is the mind-killer. It's the little death which killed people slowly and it's a total obliteration. Fear is the shadow which is drink the lightness from people's life. It's psychological elegant depth between life and death. This darkness slowly grow into people's mind and then one day it killed the people's soul.
And that's happened with Nandini.
For some people who are go through with their most of life in fear to survive for one day, pain and hurt and a nervous breakdown breed bitterness, pessimism, disenchantment, trepidation and disquietude that they feel more scared to endure their life.
And Nandini is also going through with this. She couldn't handle her when she feels threat in her life. Small things can break her down fully. Her life is not a bed of roses where she grew up in uprightness, integrity and honor. From childhood she originated with brutality, fear, sadism, inhumanity, assault and torture that she lost herself. She lost her confidence. Her self-power, her way to live life..! Now she lives in fear only that she just got scared with a 'dark eyes', 'gunshot', 'a torture' and a simple things. She is a weak girl now and doesn't matter if it's her or anyone else..! For her it's only matters that the scene she saw or she heard.
How can be a person went so low to torture her own daughter. But Nandini's mother did that. It's too tough to believe that a beautiful flower like her just dead before tasting the beauty of life.
The way she got scared today when she heard the gunshot and saw the person who killed others made her lose all sense.
She crawled up in her bed to protect her from that noise she heard. She is started to panic. And there is no one who can helped her.
She felt disgusted with herself that there is no one who can love her, who can protect her.!!!
Nandini tried to listen if there is any noise. She is pressing her nails on her other hand that it made a scars on her hand but she didn't care... she doesn't feel pain when her brain filled with unknown fear.
She tried to breathe but couldn't get enough air to breathe. She stood up and patrolling around the room but nothing could help her. She is itching her body like someone is torturing her and she is feeling the pain. She becomes restless and panting heavily. She ran into the kitchen and took a knife... and started to cut her wrist... she didn't lose any minute to torture her the way she tortured by her so called parents. Like it's a drug to her. She is starting to think that if she cut her then she will feel better.
A drop of blood fallen in the ground... she looked at the blood...! Then again cut on her wrist. Blood are dropping now. Her breathing started too normal but her eyes felt heavy and she fell down.
Life is so strange. She tried to escape her dark pain but here she is the one who is trying to cut her to feel good. How much she tried to escape but she can't hide her true self. Somehow some way she always manage to back in her old life that she tried to decamp.
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