Extra Marital Affair? - MaNan FF (Completed)

~Chapter 9~ Love?

                  

*NO PROOF READING, PARDON ME FOR THAT*

READ THE NOTE AT THE END

Sometimes life seems so difficult, hard, tough. You can't do what you want because you are just not alone in this whole world. You have to think about your family, friends, your beloveds. And if you are a married person, it's all get double. No one can understand from what pain I am going through.

Kehte hain ki raha bhi na jaye aur saha bhi na jaye. That was my situation. I can't stay with Tia, but I can't even leave her. in front of thousand people, I have vowed to her, to her family and to God that I will look after her no matter what. If she is giving up on us, doesn't matter, but I should always try. But the question is for how long I need to try? For my lifetime? Nandini is right, what if she will never change? Am I going to live a life like this? Do I deserve this?

Deserve??? What about Nandini then? She too didn't deserve that jackass Dev. But she fought back and get free from him. And what I am doing? Nothing. I am not worthy for anything and anyone.

Nandini is right I am coward. But I am more afraid for her. she has seen worst in her life, if she gets involved with me, it will be worsening. We both are just the same. She has seen worst; I am seeing my worst. But can we be together?

How perfect it will be if we will be together. The happiness, the chirpiness of my life will be back. But I can't be selfish. She deserves someone better, not an unhappy married man like me. She is pure more than a water and me? I am a dirt of the watery road.

Moreover, this society will never accept what I and Nandini have. They will curse her. even if I am unhappy with Tia, they will support Tia and will curse Nandini.

God.... Why even I am thinking about two girls at the same time? There is only one girl in my life and that is Tia. My Wife. Whatever the situation is. she is my wife, legally wedded wife.

I took a sigh and looked at the watch, it was almost evening. I walked out of the place and sat inside my car and drove away.

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It was almost night; I was sitting on my bed doing my work on my laptop actually checking my social networking sites. There were few recommendation of people I might know and there was one name who instantly grab my attention and that was "Nandini Murthy".

She was smiling the fullest in her display picture. A smile appeared on my face seeing her smile.

Again I went to our noon talks. The way she shared her miseries with me, her fall down, her confession of feelings towards me and of course my decision over it. did I do something wrong? Yes of course, I hurt her in the most hurtful manner. She didn't say she loved me, but she did tell me that she has feelings for me. Does that mean that may be, maybe she could love me? But then what about me? What about Tia?

Tia.... Does she love me? Of course she doesn't. if she would have loved me, she didn't behave with me like that. But what we had a year ago, what was that? She did tell me that she loves me. Then why is she doing this to me?

I closed my eyes in frustration. I closed the flap of laptop in Thud and placed it aside. I lay down on the bed closing my eyes not to think about Nandini and think about Tia and me.

I remembered the day when we get married, she looked beautiful. The way we had our first make out in the five-star hotel room, which was given by my friends of course. She was a little shy and bolder that day or rather night. We had it till we both were out of breath, out of all energy. We have seen the most romantic place Paris together. The way we have spent our honeymoon, in each other's arms and warmth. All the things were perfect between us, then what happened suddenly? Where I went wrong? Or where she went wrong? Or am I just over reacting about Tia.