Emo Academy (Multi Ship)

3- Lonely Trees and Endless Roses

Tyler's POV

"Uh... Hey Tyler," I heard Josh say from the door. I look up from my papers and quickly get up from my desk. "Oh hey Josh," I said leaning against my desk," I thought you were with Ryan"
"Oh yah well I was but Brendon showed up and you know how he can be," he laughed slightly smiling. A smile spread across my face. The way his eyes crinkled when he smiled and his soft calm voice.
He's wonderful.
"Yeah," I giggled," I wonder when Brendon will be honest and upfront with him. They suit each other." Josh leaned against a desk his hands running through his bubblegum hot pink hair. My eyes traveled down his face. He was beautiful with his bright eyes and plump lips, and smile that could make flowers grow.
It probably did. That's probably how Brendon has so many roses to give away. I giggled at the thought of Josh leaning over Brendons flowers and them growing.
"Yeah they really do. Have you met the new Chem teacher?." he asked looking at me with his bright hopeful eyes. I shook my head staring into his eyes.

"Not yet but I'm sure I'll see them sometime. Have you?," I asked. After what happened with Bob, Billie had to replace the chemistry teacher with someone less intimidating. "Yeah I have actually! His name is Frank, he's short and has a lot of tattoos and gages. He's really friendly and chill. I think you'll like him, I know Gerard does."

"Oh really? That's exciting. He's been single for a while," I commented looking down slightly embarrassed by the fact that I notice stuff like that. "Yeah you have to-I mean we all have except Pete and Mikey"

My face flushed red as I looked up. Did he just...? My breathing increased. Does he like me or something? I've never really been in a serious relationship before. The last time I dated someone was in high school, when I thought I was straight. "Oh I'm sorry Tyler. I didn't-" "Yeah they are really cute aren't they," I said nervously," Schools about to start you should get to the Gym."

"Tyler, I'm sorry for making you uncomfortable," he said walking over and pulling me into a hug. I wrapped my arms around him. We've been friends for a long time, and neither of us are going to throw that away over something petty like that. "It's okay Josh, you didn't make me uncomfortable, it's okay," I said pulling away. "I gotta get to my class. I'll see you later okay?," he said heading towards the door. I smiled. "Yeah I'll see you later," I said as he left.

First period went smoothly, but the start of second period started with Ryan yelling at Brendon and Brendons class joining mine. We stacked all the desks to one side of the room and sat in a clump talking about our summers and I played a few songs on my ukulele. After that it was time for lunch.

I sat in the break room eating my Taco Bell. My thoughts yet again turned to Brendon and Ryan.

Gerard often rants to me about his problems and being a good listener I think I help him relieve his stress in a sense. I am not a good talker. I find it difficult to put my words across. I often panic and stutter when someone cries, I've never been very good at comforting. Josh is though, Josh is very good at that. He always seems to know what to say. I like that about him.

Gerard often talks of of Brendon. I think Gerard cares about him more than he cares to admit. Gerard cares about a lot of things more than he cares to admit. I get the feeling he cares about Frank more than he cares to admit. Such is strange as he just met Frank today.

I stare out of the slightly grimy window of my classroom. I watch a solitary tree sway as the wind hurls itself against it. Scientists have proved that plants feel pain when you pluck off a leaf or a petal. I wonder if plants feel lonely. Maybe I'm thinking too much. I'm good at that too. I'm that tree which stands alone. I am a surrounded by people but I feel lonely. I always feel adequate like I'm only just good enough. Adequate. Yeah, that's me.

I am also like the leaves of the tree being swept along by the wind. I feel as though I'm floating through life. Not really going anywhere. No end goal. No purpose.

That's why I'm thankful for Josh. He makes me feel like life is worth living. I wake up every morning longing to see that smile and his little pointy teeth. Everything about him is perfect.

Josh often worries that people will take advantage of him because of how nice he is. I will never let people take advantage of Josh. He is mine to protect. Like a crown jewel.

I get up to go look for Josh. I didn't want to talk to him, I just wanted to watch him. I'm creepy like that.

I left the room at made a beeline to where Josh would be. The field. He trains the football team there. I knew he would be there today because I'm memorised his schedule. It makes me feel closer to him, like I understand him more.

I step outside and stand just slightly out of Josh's line of sigh. I watched as he gently encouraged players and ran beside them. He was gentle. He is peaceful. I watch his arms and they bulge with muscle. How can one man be so beautiful? He was a work of art that's for sure. Gerard should have a picture of him in hid art classroom.

I watch him smile as a goal was scored. That smile. I stared at his face long enough for it to be etched into my mind's eye. A real picture of him would be nice. I could print one out from his Facebook I guess. Frame it or something. But alas, Josh sees me as a friend and I am the man from the outside looking in. I wish he knew how much I loved him.