The Cheating game

At the premiere

*Cassidy*
"You look beyond amazing princess.. are you ready for this ?" We are in the back of a limousine and Zac looks at my sister, who sits opposite us.

I smile at him, even though it's a bit of a strained smile. "I don't think I will ever be ready.. I am just happy if I don't faint or throw up".

  "It is gonna be fine.. Tom is probably gonna be at bit surprised when he sees you, so you might have to give him a couple of minutes to recover". He reach over and take my hand, squeezing it reassuringly.

I nod, trying to focus.. To be honest I am afraid I could like faint or something when I see him.

I watch as my sister reach out to straighten Zac's butterfly, smiling ever so lovingly at him. "You look very handsome tonight my love, I guess I forgot to tell you".

"Thank you baby.. you look.. so beautiful words fail me". He turn to give me a small smile. "Uhm listen Cass..there is something I need to tell you..this might be the time to get a clean slate, let you start over knowing everything".

I probably frown a bit looking at him. "What are you talking about Zac ? You sound so serious".

"I probably should have told you this earlier.. but to be honest I was not sure Tom deserved you.. do you remember when you came to visit Alli on the set of the first Thor.. you met me and Tom.. we hung out and like had dinner ? Tom pulled me aside that night.. said you where the woman he wanted to marry.. he was just to shy to act on it".

I am shaking my head, wondering if he is suddenly speaking russian, since I can't seem to understand what he is saying. "What are you saying ?"

"He is telling you that Tom has been crazy about you since that time .. the first movie.. that he just didn't dare act on it earlier". Alicia say softly.

"Well.. I wish I had know.. but.. it wasn't anyone else's job to tell me.. but that is the past". I sigh.. I wish he had shown me.. cause well.. I felt the same back then.

Zac smiles softly at me. "Well, now you know.. so.. it's up to you if it makes a difference or not".

I nod.. does it make a difference ? i don't really know. But I guess it is nice to know that his feeling seem to be lasting.. before going in there and.. and what ? Get the man I have never been able to forget. "So anything else I should know ?"

"Well.. Chris actually told me something last time I talked to him". My sister say a bit nervously. "That dare.. Tom cheated.. he wanted me and the kiss.. not that he wanted me like that at first.. he had some fucked up idea that I would tell you and you would come running to stop him.. but when you didn't he.. thought I could replace you".

I reach out stopping Zac from running his hand through his hair again, while keeping my eyes on my sister. "Stop doing that, your hair will end up a haystack.. thanks for telling me sis.

This evening suddenly seemed to gonna play out different than expected.. I most certainly have a bone to pick with one Tom Hiddleston.

*Tom*
I am getting ready for the premiere.. not that I really feel like going at all.. but I have too.. I am expected to.

Actually I don't really feel like doing much of anything these days.. especially public events like a red carpet where I have to plaster on a bright smile.. I miss her so much that I am not able to think about anything else.. no not Alicia.. her sister Cassidy.. the one I truly love.

I often think I spot her in the street, but it is never her when they turn around. For a while she had a boyfriend, but according to the media they broke up. I am wondering if there is any chance she will be there tonight.. or Maybe Zac and Alicia.. I heard they are expecting their first kid and I am honestly happy for them.

I messed everything up so badly.. I thought I could make Cassidy get jealous if I flirted with her sister.. then I thought Alicia could somehow replace Cassidy.. and I ended up losing everything.. which I fully deserved.

After a night of drowning myself in a bottle of scotch I had went to apologise to Alicia, to try and get her back, which was as stupid as can be.. she isn't Cassidy and could never be.

But then Zac had been there and I kind of went of the racket.. I said some awful things.. things I still hate thinking about, luckily Zac had put me back in line pretty hard.

I don't hate Zac anymore, I am not really even mad with him.. I would have done the same if the tables was turned.

After going through some extensive therapy and hearing she was single again, I thought about looking her up.. give her a call and ask her out.. but I hadn't dared.. I am afraid that she hates me.. and I guess it is better to.. have a small hope and keep distance than to stuff it out forever.

At first I had tried dating, filling the void with other women, but it did not work, within weeks they annoyed me to no extend, mostly because they were not Cassidy. And I realised Zac was right.. I needed help.

When my limo pull up to the red carpet I take a deep calming breath and put on my smile before getting out.. at a distance no one will notice.. even up close you probably have to know me to notice that my smile never seem to,reach my eyes these days.

Getting out, smiling and waving like a trained monkey and pretending to enjoy this, while my inside is screaming.. my soul feeling like it is withering away.

And there is Zac.. he is standing next to Chris, Alicia on his arm.. they seem to be talking. I wonder if I should walk over.. I have no bad feelings towards Zac or Alicia, but I don't know how they feel about me.

Then Chris move and I see HER.. she has her back to me and her hair has gotten much longer, but there is no doubt this time.. Truth is I would recognise Cassidy anywhere

She lost a bit of weight too I notice.. someone ought to make sure she eat enough, but why is she there ? Apparently she is here with Zac and Alicia.

Of course Zac spots me and lean down, whispering something to Cassidy.. Which kinda makes me wonder what will happen if I simply turn and run away ?

She turn, staring at me.. then she say something to Zac and suddenly she is walking right towards me with a scowl on her beautiful face.

I see how Zac sends me a grin and a look that tells me he is very much happy not to be me right now.

She is looking absolutely stunning and very pissed off, and for some reason it turn me on.. I feel my trousers starting to tighten in the crotch as I stare at her like hypnotised.

Cassidy stop right in front of me, putting her tiny hands on her hips, her voice lashing out at me. "Thomas William Hiddleston, you cheated".