Sex Lessons |z.h.|

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Niall looked at himself in the mirror, his reflection showing all the tension lines around his face and the dull look in his eyes. He wanted to smile, to laugh his worries away but it wasn't possible, not when there were so many secrets looming in the dark and so many people were getting hurt along the way. He had already made up his mind to visit Louis, not because he wanted their old friendship to spring back into action but rather because he understood, or at least tried to understand, the pain Louis must be going through upon loosing someone he truly loves. It was definitely not the pure and innocent kind of love, and who knows, maybe it wasn't love at all but Niall wasn't going to be a heartless bitch. He wanted to be there for his ex- best friend. No matter how badly it hurt him. 

"Are you ready?" Zayn's voice brought him back from his thoughts and the blonde smiled, not thinking about Liam who was behind the bars, Louis who was hurting and Ashton who was on the run but focusing on the tall, dark and handsome man before his eyes who looked extremely thankful and happy to be there, with Niall by his side. It made him smile and for a second nothing else mattered but those hazel eyes with a speck of golden dust in them. Niall quickly nodded his head to the question, taking Zayn's hands in his own as they headed downstairs towards the car. 

It was a night for the Pakistani and he was proud to be sharing it with his lover. And even though they hadn't officially labelled their relationship yet, both of them were well aware that they needed one another to be content and happy. Zayn shivered in his car seat, turning the heat on immediately as he glanced briefly at the beautiful blonde. It was the last part of his surprise and he just hoped Niall would like it. Quickly starting the car, Zayn turned the radio on, not wanting the silence to get too awkward and nasty. 

"I'm proud of you," Niall said softly all of a sudden, making Zayn blush furiously before smiling wide. 

"Thank you." The tanned man replied back, wishing that the day would proceed as smoothly as it was going during their journey to the gallery. With everything going on in their lives, the Pakistani felt as if they had been lacking quality together time and during the moments when they were with each other, Niall was always preoccupied with his own thoughts or it was Zayn himself doing the same. 

"I love you," The blonde whispered all of a sudden, making the older man swerve the car a little bit before he regained control of the wheel and pulled to the side, carefully so. 

"I love you too." Zayn replied back, turning around completely so he could stare at the blonde's face, smiling at the way their was a faint blush creeping on Niall's neck and all the way up his cheeks, giving them a lovely tint.It was rather strange, to be confessing their feelings out like this in the middle of the road, in the car but it was still very much lovely for the two of them. 

"Harry called me up, you know right?" Zayn nodded, starting the car once again after he had pecked Niall's lips gently. "He told me to ask you about Ashton. What's going on Zayn?" The blonde mumbled the last bit silently, sighing as he stared out at the traffic ahead of them. 

"It's nothing I've got to hide. Ashton was introduced to me by Louis and just like I was tutoring you in the beginning, helping you with sex, I was doing the same for him.  He was extremely young and I never guessed that he would turn out to be a complete lunatic." The Pakistani paused, taking a U-turn before speaking up once again. "Every other person I interacted with, Ashton started hating them and threatening them. It came to my notice later, since most of my friends just thought of him as some brat who was turning clingy but my god, if I had known earlier, just the level of obsession he had with me, I would have stopped everything from going too far." 

"What did he do?" Niall asked curiously, biting the inside of his cheek. 

"He almost killed someone. Someone very close to me and I informed Louis of that, which resulted in Ashton moving away. But when I saw him back here, I was willing to put everything behind us. For Harry to tell you about him, I'm guessing Ashton was somehow related to the Liam issue?" Zayn frowned, feeling guilty that somebody related to his past was the reason why Niall was hurting. It didn't make sense to him at all, why the blonde had to be the center of everyone's hatred and contempt. He never did anything wrong but alas, all good people end up hurting the most.