We Are Endgame

Shelby and Melanie Part 2

I knew what I came here for to see and hope for the opportunity to see and speak to my mama. In the moment however, I lost my voice, I was overwhelmed or overcome I suppose. The tears started rolling, placed my book on the table, to grab her hand and move closer to her bedside. I kiss her forehead and thats when the words start proceeding to roll off my tongue, I tried to say them as clearly as I could with the mixture of tears and the overwhelming fear of losing her and yet dissapointing her.

"Mom, please don't be mad at me, I know you wanted me to live my life and you wanted me to be happy, and not to be here everyday, and to not worry but I couldn't anymore. I can't be strong like you, worrying is who I am when it comes to our relationship. Please don't argue with me, I need you, and these last couple weeks I have tried so hard to keep my focus on school, my boyfriend, my grades and glee club but mentally I couldn't handle it anymore. Seeing you already feels like a weight off my chest. So please, please I am begging you don't ask me to leave and don't call Rachel. I need you, I need my mom" I croak out as bringing the end of my sleeves to remove the tears falling down my face.

Shelby sits up with what little strength she has, and brings her face to Melanie's and helps wipe away the remaining tears, then proceeds to place her forehead on her daughters. Holding her hand still, both in the moment of silence, experiencing a wave of emotions, hard to overcome and explain. Melanie helps her lay back comfortably and tucks her in before one of them breaks the silence.

"Sweet Sweet Baby Girl, I am so sorry you feel like you coudn't see me at all, or even feel like I didn't want to see you. It was not my intent and it breaks my heart so to see you heartbroken. I love you so much and I am glad you are here now and communicated how you are feeling to me. You are brave and you are strong, but you don't always have to be, and I could never in a million years be mad at you my love. I wanted you to live your life for if there is a time after but I lost sight of how much it would hurt you to not see me as well. I have spent every day missing you, not realizing you be spending your time feeling the same. Never ever again will I ask you to stay away or leave, please forgive me Mel" Shelby says

Melanie gets up and hugs her mother and exclaims "Nothing to forgive, you did nothing wrong. I love you so much and I am very glad I am here now, I have so many things to tell you and hope that you have a lot to tell me as well. What do you say mother- daughter day of catching up? I can get us food, ask the nurse what you can eat. I promise I wont be in your hair overnight, or else Rachel will be worried and I can't miss school after today again"

"Melanie Rose, you missed school? Its okay I am glad that you don't plan on doing it again, but I would love nothing more. As long as I am awake, te meds make me very sleepy and you already for me to wake up once. I would feel terrible if you did again especially on a school night, love. Nothing more I love to catch up with my beautiful amazingly talented daughter" Shelby smiles after

They get approval from the doctors and nurses for Melanie to spend a couple hours before her next treatment. After that it be nothing but treatment, but Melanie would take any time she could get. She stopped ignoring Rachels calls and explained where she was and what she needed, it shocked to her a little to know Rachel understood, especially missing glee club and then ignoring her all day, that she didn't lecture her. They spend the next four hours she was allotted with her mom watching and introducing shelby to one of my favorite tv shows "The Society", just to bond as we eat chinese for me and her cafeteria, doctor approved meal. The room is filled with love, and laughter, a healing atmosphere, one full of love. They both needed this

The day ended better then when it began, no more fear, tears, sadness. Just the wholesome love between a mother and her daughter. Everything felt whole again. Melanie got a taxi back home as it be to late to catch a bus back, back home to home, to rachel and finn.

Rachel who was waiting with open arms, knowing exactly what Melanie needed in the moment. Being a great big sister. Melanie let her backpack drop, and went in her for the hug and let all her strength and fear fall in that very moment. All the fear she couldn't show with her mom as the doctor explained she requires more meds to feel less pain, that she isn't responding to treatment. The sunken, jaundice, exhausted look on her moms face no matter how much she sleeps daily. Rachel knew what her sister, 16 year old sister needed, she needed a rock, a shoulder to cry on, and she was grateful for her.