The Abused and Suicidal Host {EDITED}

VI

It's been two days since my birthday and my 3rd visit to my brothers grave this year I go about 6 times a year maybe more If I need to let stuff go and flush it out of my system and to rant. And tonight the Host Club is holding some big ball for some stupid reason.... 'stupid Suoh' I thought 'I'm going to my sanctuary' I got up from my seat in front of Haninozuka and started walking towards the door the club had closed by now just some girl trying to teach Fujioka to dance.

As I got right in front of the door my hand on the handle about to open the door, I felt someone jump onto my back "Yana-chan where are you going?" Haninozuka asked from my shoulders, "Music Room #4, Haninozuka-san" I replied, Haninozuka sighed "Yana-chan, you can call me Honey or Mitsukuni like Takashi does" he says to me and I nodded.

"Ok... Mitsukuni" I said, I didn't particularly like calling people by their first names, but I don't want to seem rude. I picked him off of my shoulders and walked over to where Morinozuka was standing and placed Mitsukuni onto his shoulders, "Here Morinozuka-san I know you don't like being without Mitsukuni for too long" I said blankly and Morinozuka looked up at me, considering I was taller than Morinozuka by a couple of inches.

"Thank you Yanagisawa-san," Morinozuka said, I nodded and turned to walk away when Mitsukuni spoke up "Can we come Yana-chan?" he asked, I nodded hesitantly and Mitsukuni cheered and jumped from Morinozuka's shoulders and ran out of the room while yelling at us to hurry up.

When we arrived at my sanctuary Mitsukuni and Morinozuka took a seat on one of the many couches in the room, "Yana-chan! Can you play a song for us please?" Mitsukuni asked jumping up and down where he sat, I, again, nodded hesitantly and sat down in front of them after grabbing the guitar and sat in on my lap after a quick tune-up I started playing the cords that were so familiar to me as I played this song whenever I got the chance, I cleared my throat and began to sing:

'My reflection in the mirror,

It's so empty as if there's nothing there,

I walk alone on the street,

But this empty street feels so empty,

Da ra dat dat dat dat dat dat baby don't worry,

After waking up from the dream that was you,

This morning feels so empty,

As I face the morning, I realize once again,

What wakes me up is not you but an alarm bell,

Why is this bed so damn big?

In my vast desert of a heart, only a cold wind blows,

I'm an empty shell, a coward without you,

People around me look at me with pity,

It kills me, no what a day,

Before starting my day,

Without thinking about I saw.....

My reflection in the mirror,

It's so empty as if there's nothing there,

(There's no smile on my face),

I walk alone on the street,

But this empty street feels so empty,

(It's quiet, just like my heart),

Da ra dat dat dat dat dat dat baby don't worry,

(Da ra dat dat dat dat da ra)

After waking up from the dream that was you,

This morning feels so empty,

(My heart feels so empty),