The Abused and Suicidal Host {EDITED}

XXI

For the rest of the week and half of the following week Araki did not show up at school, instead, he either stayed at home in his room or at the recording studio, he secretly brought, recording the song he wrote.

Araki decided that he would go to school the last two days, one day he will spend with Saburo, then his last day he will use to say his goodbyes to everyone, knowing that he will never see them again and also slip his letters to them into their respective book bags.

All of his letters for the host club members are just a piece of paper saying 'I'm sorry. Goodbye,' all except Morinozuka, Mitsukuni and Fujioka-san. He even had one written out for the staff members explaining that he wanted this and that it was nobody's fault but his own.

Although Morinozuka's letter was more heartfelt, in his letter Araki told him about everything, the abuse, his self-harm, Araki's feelings about Morinozuka and explaining why Araki said no, and finally the fact that he was going to kill himself and a finale 'Goodbye'.

As he walked the empty halls of the school after spending the day with Saburo and in his classes, and with nobody left on school property he went to his music room and sat at his piano for the last time.

'Lost in your mind
I wanna know
Am I losing my mind?
Never let me go

If this night is not forever
At least we are together
I know I'm not alone
I know I'm not alone
Anywhere, whenever
Apart, but still together
I know I'm not alone
I know I'm not alone

I know I'm not alone
I know I'm not alone

Unconscious mind
I'm wide awake
Wanna feel one last time
Take my pain away

If this night is not forever
At least we are together
I know I'm not alone
I know I'm not alone
Anywhere, whenever
Apart, but still together
I know I'm not alone
I know I'm not alone

I know I'm not alone
I know I'm not alone
I'm not alone, I'm not alone
I'm not alone, I know I'm not alone
I'm not alone, I'm not alone
I'm not alone, I know I'm not alone'

When he was finished he got up and made his way out of the school, getting into the car he was driving, he drove to the nearest hardware store and brought some rope, then drove himself back home.

When Araki arrived he went and saw his father to tell him he was home, got his daily beating, the limped back to his room where proceeded to get the rope out and tie knots into it turning it into a noose, placing the noose into the back of his wardrobe he showered and cut himself a few times the went to bed skipping dinner in favour of dreaming about Takashi, and what dating him would be like.

It was Araki's only way of ever being with Takashi in anyway, and Araki was quite happy that Takashi's face would be the last he sees when he ends everything tomorrow, Araki, now content with his plans fell asleep dreaming of his love.

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There we go, another update! Heck yeah!!

Anyway, one chapter left then the book is done. (Not including the alternate ending if you guys want one)

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