The Abused and Suicidal Host {EDITED}

V

After Fujioka had yelled at Renge and Ootori, Morinozuka and Haninozuka had cleaned me up, I left and hoped into the limo that was waiting for me "Sakura-san?" I asked "Yes young master?" he replied, "Take me to the cemetery please..." I asked "Of course young master..... Did you wish to see him..." he asked and I nodded knowing he was looking in the review mirror, "We will be arriving shortly then Young Master" Sakura had been my personal driver for years now.

"Young Master... We are here" Sakura said as he held my door open "Thank you Sakura," I said before walking away to... His... grave. When I got there I cleaned up the gravestone and traced the lettering:

'Here lies a beloved Son, Brother and nephew;

1999.9.23 to 2009.7.23 {[(A/N; Year.Month.Day)]}

Yanagisawa Satsuki

He will be sadly missed and forever remembered,

May your soul Rest In Peace Forever

And may your heart guide and protect those you love'

Yanagisawa Satsuki...... My older brother....., My older TWIN brother we were a second apart... And as close as twins could be...

Until we found out he had a disease that there was apparently no cure for, he passed away from the disease that finally made his heart give out, 2 years before our parents got a divorce, Father didn't care he still had an heir, but mother cared. Satsuki was her favoured child but she still loved me.

We were 9 going to turn 10 in 2 months when he passed away, Satsuki wasn't sad that he was going to die, no quite the opposite, he embraced it, what saddened him was that Father had stopped training Satsuki to take over when Father died, instead he immediately started my training and ignored Satsuki altogether, Satsuki didn't hate me, he was sad that Father had forgotten about his firstborn.

"Hey Satsuki, it's our 18th birthday today, but I suppose you already know that... I wonder if Mother visits you... I know Father doesn't I try to get him to come to at least say 'happy birthday' or at least 'Hi', but he just gets angry and beats me some more..." I sighed wiping away the tear that fell from my right eye.

I spent the next three hours speaking to Satsuki's gravestone about everything; School, Father beating me, how the beatings started, Mother cheating on Father with our accountant 2 years after he died... Everything, just like old times when we were children before he died..., We never kept secrets from each other, and if we did we had Lucy make us an extremely disgusting shake that we had to drink all of.

"I miss you Satsuki, and I know you can't hear me or see me cause you're dead and you've been dead for 8 years now but I like to think that you can hear me and see me, I just can't see or hear you... And it makes me feel a little bit better about myself to tell you that I miss you and that I love you, and to be honest Satsuki I don't think I'll love anyone apart from you... And quite frankly I DON'T WANT to love anyone else but you..." I say quietly while fiddling with my fingers that rested in my lap.

"S-Satsuki-" I stop as sobs rack through my body making me shake, "I w-wish you were s-still here... I wish it w-was me buried six f-feet under... I-I want you to c-come back Satsuki... P-Please come back to m-me!!! I-It hurts so d-damn much not having you here S-Satsuki... W-Why did you l-leave me Satsuki, I d-didn't wanna be here by m-myself..., Why d-didn't you take m-me w-with y-you..." I cry to the gravestone.

"WHY SATSUKI!!! WHY DID YOU LEAVE ME IN THIS HELL-HOLE ALONE?!?!?!?!?!" I scream to the dark grey clouds that were slowly but surely letting out the water within them, making the rain mix with my tears, hiding the fact that I ever cried.