I Never Knew

Don't Cry For Me

Shizuo lets the steaming water of the shower roll down his body. He is crying again, his body shaking from the sobs. A minute later, he turns off the water and wraps himself in a towel. He sits down on the edge of the tub and puts his face in his hands, wetting them with his tears. Shizuo stays like that for a long moment until he gets the strong, sudden urge to look up. He looks around, and his attention quickly turns to the steamy mirror.

What he saw on the mirror made him freeze, and a chill ran down his spine. On the mirror, written in the water, were four simple words.

                                                                  Don't cry for me.

Shizuo stared at the mirror in shock for a second before stammering "I-Izaya?" Then, the wide-eyed blonde watches as more words are slowly drawn on the mirror.

'I'm here' they eventually spell out. "I love you so much" Shizuo whispers to Izaya. He suddenly feels the air around him become freezing cold. He knows the raven is trying to hug him. "I wish I could see you." the bartender says quietly, sadly. Then, a thought pops into his head. "Izaya..." he begins "I want to be with you again. I want to see you. I'll be with you soon enough. I just have to do one little thing first. Then, we can be with each other forever." Izaya writes 'NO' on the mirror, and the air around Shizuo goes back to the normal temperature.

"You can't stop me, Izaya!" Shizuo says "I promised I would protect you, and this is me keeping my promise!" He quickly walks out of the bathroom, cold air hitting his wet body in the process. He goes to his bedroom and produces a small hand gun from a hidden compartment in his closet. He loads it, cocks it, and places it against the side of his head. 

The cold air engulfs him again as he feels his arm being forcefully lowered. "Get away, Izaya!" Shizuo yells as he resists the force and puts the gun back in place. Suddenly, he hears Izaya's voice just barely whisper "Don't". The blonde pauses for a moment before growling "Damn flea, I have to!!" He closes his eyes as he pulls his finger back, a tear falling from his eye.

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Shizuo opens his eyes after nothing happens. The gun never went off, and he was still very much alive. "IZAYA!!" he yells, enraged. He tries again, but still, nothing happens. The blonde drops the gun to the floor and falls back on the bed, tears streaming from his eyes. "Izaya," he says "If it was possible for me to truly hate you, I would right now. I-I made a promise to myself...to you, and I failed to keep it. I'm so sorry, Izaya. I love you." 

"I love you too" Shizuo hears whispered through the air. He smiles at the sound of his flea's voice, wishing that Izaya was actually right there beside him, alive. Just then, a loud knock sounds from the door of his apartment. Shizuo sits up and stands, starting to walk out of the bedroom. He suddenly feels himself being pulled back, and he hears "HIDE".

"Why?" Shizuo asks "Who is it?" "NOW!" Izaya says. Shizuo, after a brief hesitation, decided to trust the raven. He hid in his closet, covered by the clothes hanging up around him. He tried, to his success, to slow his breathing, and silence his sobs. That's when he remembers that he failed to lock his door when he got home. He faintly hears it open, then slam shut a second later. Footsteps can be heard roaming around the apartment, searching.

"Shizuo?" a familiar, voice calls out in the silence. The man this voice belonged to, Shizuo knew, was not in the least bit friendly. The man then steps into the bedroom, and Shizuo can see, from the crack in the closet door, that it was the man from earlier, who had shot Shizuo when he answered the door. Shizuo wasn't surprised to see the gun he held in his hand. "Where are you, Shizu-chan?" This enraged the blonde. No one, besides Izaya, can call him that. He wanted to yell at the man and beat him senseless, but he knew the man only said it to make him come out of hiding. "I know you're here, cuz I watched you get home. You can't hide forever. Just make it easier for both of us and come out so I can shoot you.....I was watching the news earlier today, and I saw what has happened to your precious Izaya. He's where he belongs now. He's dead!" The man chuckles darkly, making Shizuo want to come out and snap his neck. "He deserved it, for letting you go. I watched for him to leave last night, and he never did. So, I had one of my guys steak out and watch. Izaya walked out the next morning, and, what do you know, you left a little later. Didn't you? I was going to have Izaya killed, but I guess I didn't have to, cuz some lucky bastard did it for me! Now, I just have to get rid of you! So come on out and do the world a favor."

Shizuo remained silent, and didn't move an inch. The man disappears from his view, and the room is silent for a moment. But then, Shizuo watches as fingers grip the side of the closet door and start to slide it open. The man now sees Shizuo among the clothes in the closet. "Found you." he says menacingly, while holding up the gun to the blonde bartender's head.

'Izaya's gonna save me.' Shizuo thinks to himself 'I hope.'

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