He wasn't going to tell Liam, but there was no way he could hide it either. Niall had told his mom he was feeling good enough to go home on his own. He needed some time alone and he had an hour before Liam would come home. He closed the door and started crying. What the hell was he suppossed to do? Ruin Liam's life even more? He couldn't, he defenitly couldn't..
But what was he suppossed to do? If he'd stay Liam would defenitly find out, so that meant he had to leave.. Where did he go? Perrie? That was too close to home.. They'd find out where he was straight away and Niall believed Perrie would eventually speak about it by accident.
He could kill himself..
As soon as the thought came up he forced it out of his head because he could not let himself think that way! By that he was dragging another life down with him if he would go for that option and he simply couldn't make himself do it. An orphange would defenitly search for contact with his parents.
What the hell was he suppossed to do? He was deeply ashamed of himself and didn't understand how this could have happend because they always used protection! He grabbed his laptop and started searching. Perhaps there was a place for pregnant teenagers to go? He had no idea because he had never been in a situation like this before.
It didn't take long before he found something. It wasn't far away. He could perhaps travel by train. Was he going to leave a message. He could atleast let Liam know he'd be save right? He grabbed a pencil and paper and sighed. What was he going to say?
Dear Liam..
Before you read all of this I want you to know that I love you more then anyone else, but that I can't be with you anymore. We should never have been in the first place. I know I'm a burden and now that this has happend I can't be selfish any longer. You being with me takes all your free time away. You watch me, do nice things with me, make me feel better all you can, take care of me whenever you can and you love me. You love me too much Liam.. And what do I do? I take and I can't do anything in return. You're putting your job and reputation at risk for me and this only makes it worse and I can't stay here Liam.. Please tell mom I love her too.
Know that I love you and that I'm save.
Niall.
He forced himself to stop crying as he left the letter in the kitchen and ran upstairs, getting his bag as he threw some clothes in it, his phone, earphones, some extra stuff. He made a note of the adress and grabbed money which his mom had given him and made his way to the train station.
London would be his destination.
Liam got home about 20 minutes later. "Niall! I'm home!" He had made plans already. He had bought a new movie Niall talked about so they could watch it on the couch after dinner, which would be Niall's favorite. Fear ran through Liam right away when he got no response, because last time that happend he found Niall barely breathing.
He walked into the livingroom and then went upstairs, but Niall wasn't there. He was about to call Maura when he noticed the piece of paper on the kitchen table. He frowned and walked over, picking it up as he reconized Niall's handwriting. It was beautiful really, rather a girls handwriting since most boys handwritings were quite messy.
He read the letter twice, starting to cry. He didn't get it. What did Niall mean with 'and this only makes it worse' he didn't understand. He took his phone out and called Niall, but as expected he got no response. He texted in the hope he'd change his mind and called Maura to tell about the letter as he drove to her house, taking the letter with him. He'd go search for Niall and if he didn't find him he'd go to the police.
He drove to Maura's place, who seemed pale when she opened the door. "Did he call you?" Liam asked. He was dead worried. She shook her head no. "He didn't contact me either.."
