Art Book 3

Confused...

I'm confused...

I'll sum this up

I'm texting my friend FreezeHax on Facebook, which isn't unusual. Then he said "yes dear". Now normally I shrug this stuff off because he's, well, a little weird (in a good way), but I asked about it anyways. He says "it's a way to show affection...er...show a form of respect. Like saying ma'am" but I stop at this.."affection".

Now I'm thinking "well, he's a bit socially awkward, he could word these things wrong" so I ask. "Affection? You can't seem to word things right today XD"

His reply "I meant what I said"

Now I'm thinking "hold on...somethings happening..."

I then ask "so...you're saying that you like me?"

"Yes"

Now I'm like "based on a conversation we've had a while ago similar to this. Maybe this is the same thing. It doesn't mean what I think and he's being technical"

So I ask "as more than friends?"

"Of course"

"Best friends?"

Then he said I was oblivious. Now I'm really getting onto it "okay so does he really like me? Like truly does he like me?" Then I think "no...he said before he didn't want a girlfriend" so I'm lost.

Some time later, he says "I pay attention to things. Sorta cute, quiet, pretty voice, has glasses, has habits like me".

So I say "sorta cute?" Then I'm sittin on the other end grinnin like an idiot! So I tell him.

And some time later he asked why I'm happy and I say I'm happy for him (since something good happened, and I shall not name it) then I said "can I not be happy?"

"No no! Please be happy! I like when you're happy! I want you to be happy!"

Then we said good night and that's the end of it.

Now...I don't know what to do or say to him tomorrow...I'm lost in emotions and I'm not sure if I know what I'm getting into. Sure I've had crushes, totally unrealistic ones, like Sans (I've gotten over him) and Jacksepticeye (which I'm not over), but never have I liked someone I've known personally as more than a friend or best friend...I don't know what to think...what to feel...what to do......

I find myself approaching him in chemistry grinning like an idiot, and trying to force the smile back just makes it worse, then sometimes I think of him, when I'll see him again, when I can talk to him again...but not all that often. And during this conversation...I couldn't help but notice I had that same idiotic grin on my face almost the whole time. And sometimes, I got butterflies...

This is just...I don't know. I can't describe it. I don't know what's happening, and I'm not too keen on telling my parents cause they'll be all over me...

Help? Please? I'm confused. I'm lost. I don't know what to do. I don't know what I'm feeling. I don't know what to say