Change Ahead

Chapter-19

How dare he should be do it and be casual about what had happened?

I hated him now. I felt terrible for my innocence. He had used me earlier and now, he wants me to be off-the-cuff with him?

I decided I should avoid him and any of his tantrums to meet with me. Of course he is going to as sorry. I knew.

Only two theories, one, he should really love me and did this stupid mistake and he wants to apologize and be accepted. Two, he could deceive me again to sell me off to a better price.

I avoided him for weeks together. He did not seem to fail in his routine of following me back and forth. It seemed like he patiently waited for me to turn up. Is he really yearning for a good name to deceive me or is he true to me?

Initially, I was confronted many times by him and I managed myself to get out of the situation.

One day, I was walking from the train station to home. I realized Varun following me. I stopped suddenly and turned back; he looked blank at me for a second and got excited that I was ready to talk to him.

He came eagerly to me. He gave a weak and trembling smile. I gained some courage and said, "Please don't follow me. I feel so irritated. There is nothing that you can do to change what happened. So please let me live."

"Ok. But I'm truly sorry for what happened. It was wrong. What I did was wrong. Please allow me to correct it. Please Gaze; let me explain my side of it."

"I already told you. I do not want any explanation for it. We do not have anything in between us now. Please do not follow me."

"Gaze... Listen what I got to say and then I will accept your decision. I am not as bad as you think I'm. Give me a chance. Please Gaze. My love for you is true. Let me prove that." He tried to hold my hand and I stepped back to avoid it.

"I don't know. But after what you did to me, you have lost my trust."

"What happened was not what you think it is! All I did was save you from the real danger. Please trust me."

"Do you even realize what you did to me? Do you? I'm grateful that you saved me. But I do not trust you anymore. I do not think I can trust you anymore. I cannot do this."

"Gaze, I followed you ever since I saw you. I'm so madly in love with you."

"No. You only desire for my body."

"No. that is not true."

"You said it yourself in that room."

"Yes. I did. But, I did not mean it. But I had to say it."

"I don't think any explanation of yours would the best answer for what you said or what you meant. So let's leave it at that. Now, please don't follow me." I left steadfast.

He didn't seem to listen; he still followed me everywhere I went. I was infuriated, irated.

One morning, I found a note on my doorstep saying,

'What I did to you was a grave mistake. I cannot undo it. I wish if I can do anything to make it up for you. I love you truly. I want to be with you for the rest of my life, not only because I love you but I also feel responsible for you. For everything that happened to you since you came out of your house. Honestly, I was forced when I showed no interest and I delayed it for four long years. What I have been doing is wrong. I understand that. Please give me another chance to be true to you. I'm following you so that you don't get into trouble again. Now that everybody knows what happened, you have to be more careful. Please trust me. I'm only trying to save from further danger. But trust me; my love for you is true. Very true! I swear on my mother.'