A Million Miles Away - A MyStreet Garroth X Reader Fanfiction {COMPLETED}

Chapter 15: Alone

Your POV: I don't talk to them, especially not Aphmau. Technically, we were still roomates, but we acted like the complete opposite. She had tried to apologize, but I didn't take it. How, how can you forgive someone after they do something like that? 

I wake up like I usually do, this morning slipping on a comfy pair of slippers. I see her sitting there, eating her breakfast, but I don't utter out a word to her. I don't know what to say, and even if I did, I wouldn't want to have to talk to her. Not after what she did, what she did even after she knew how I felt about him. I knew it must be hard for her, too. Her and Aaron broke up shortly after the scandal, and now, her own best friend was ignoring her. But it was even harder for me, I was betrayed by the two people who I thought cared about me the most. 

I loved Garroth, I really did. And you know, I thought he loved me too, he had even told me that he did. But, I guess it's easy to lie. It's easy to say one thing when you feel a different thing. He had tried to talk to me, but I didn't give him the chance. I refused to even listen to what he had to say, no matter what he tried to prove, I wouldn't be able to forgive him. It was over, and both of us knew it. 

Even though I was the one refusing to speak, I still feel lonely. I miss Garroth, I really do. But I know, deep down inside, it's for the best. If he can do it once, he can do it again, and I don't want to have my heart broken again. 

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Garroth's POV: God, I miss Y/N. I tried to talk to them, but they wouldn't listen. But, I couldn't blame them honestly. If I had pulled a me on me, I wouldn't listen to what I had to say either. I was a jerk, no sugarcoating it. That didn't mean I still didn't miss them, that doesn't mean I don't wish I could turn back time with every ounce of my heart. 

After the incident, I flew back home. There wasn't a reason for me to be there anymore, it was obvious Y/N wouldn't give me the time of day. Once I got back home, Laurence knew. He was ticked, and we still are fighting. If I had known how much I would lose from that one, simple mistake, I would have never done it. Not only did I lose the one I thought I loved, I also lost one of my best friends. It's stupid, even after what a jerk he was to me and Y/N, I still miss him. I still miss the inside jokes, the nights spent playing video games with each other, the bromance altogether. Now, I mostly hang around Dante. I never thought I would say this, but I'm starting understand him. 

He too is having relationship problems, in fact, you could say worse than mine. He's in the middle of a custody battle over his son Dmitri, with his ex-wife Nicole. It's intense, and it's took a toll on him. He keeps telling me to not mess up like he did, to wait until the right time to have a kid. I think he knows about what happened, but it's still nice to hear, almost like there's still someone out there who believes I can do good. 

He'd be the only one, even I have lost faith in myself. I'm alone, and no one cares. No one cares because it's my fault, and I can never change that. I can never change that I ruined my relationship with Y/N, and that it will never be fixed.